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Model references for Etoile Gamer Gear -Hatsune Miku -Ichika Hoshino -Kohane Azusawa -Kanade Yoisaki -Minori Hanasato

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Project Sekai: Colorful Stage! (updated version)

Illustration and concept art by: chie_rico

very almost there.

breakfast was delicious. joel and i got up a little later than intended, and he watched a video and lost track of time while i showered, and we got our stuff together and joined the rest of the folks in the lobby to go get breakfast, which i didn't actually get breakfast food for. instead of ordering a cuban sandwich the other day when i went out and got pastries, i had stopped for pressed and got a tuna sandwich. but this time i DID get a cuban sandwich. but the honey mustard wasn't great. it was just honey and dijon mustard mixed together, which, if you were not aware, the incorrect way to make honey mustard.

you gotta use mayo.

it's weird, but it balances the flavors and makes the texture and color what you'd expect of honey mustard. it evens it out and makes it smoother and more palatable. it's like 3 parts mayo, 2 parts honey, and 1 part mustard, or 3-2-1 honey mayo mustard. i don't remember, but i used to make it a lot at the cafe at the bookstore i worked at.

back from the con, i stepped out of the vehicle after an hour drive and a delicious breakfast to a beautiful day. joel and i brought things inside and then went and laid down on the bed and i immediately melted. it was so comfortable. my hips didn't hurt. my shoulders didn't hurt. my back didn't hurt. it was exactly what i needed to have to recover from the weekend. well, that and several hours of fucking around on my phone and not pressing myself into python for a day.

so that's what i did. i laid down and did nothing.

and then i went to shave my legs because i rescheduled physical therapy from the morning to the afternoon because we were still in mass. and around 4:15 i left for PT.

it is important to note that the amount of pain i was in at the beginning was significant, but after a good massage and some exercises, it was nothing compared to the pain in my back.

after it was all done, i got some gas across the street and went home. james made burgers for dinner, and mom made beans and cooked up some fresh massachusetts corn and it was all really good. i was happy to eat again since my last meal was at the diner.

and then i sat outside with my sister for a while, and she told me about how she's been and what has been happening in her pathfinder game lately.

we were outside in the still beautiful weather for a good half an hour before the swarms of buggies were too much.

then we came inside and i say with mom talking and planning the week and the tasks we needed to accomplish before heading to bed for the night. i wrote down most of what i need to know for the week, but i am here now, in bed, happy to relinquish control of my conscious mind to the quiet beasts that lie in wait for the moment to strike me down with sleep.

i got up at a normal hour and went downstairs to the con space this morning, after eating a delightful breakfast supplied to me by dean and joel.

WHY does my swipe to text ALWAYS say "hotel" instead of "joel"

i hate it smh

anyway

i sat and worked on my python stuff for a short while and it did Not take a long time for my eyes to have had enough and for my head to start hurting. it's really hard to work when your eyes refuse to focus.

so after about two and a half hours of doing stuff i came back upstairs and took a nap. i didn't sleep until about 3ish, though, so when i woke up around 5:45 or so it was still an appropriate length of nap.

i got back up and went back downstairs where things were cleaned up and basically all done, and almost everybody was gone save for those folks who were going to stay for dinner for the "afterparty." there's always one for the con, but usually we get five guys. we got pizza this year and jason and i got chicken tendies. they made my tummy hurt.

after dinner and pictures and reading the quotes from the year, i went to get ice cream from a place down the street. i had a list, and one poor girl who wanted something specific didn't get her first OR second choice, but eventually i was able to get her some coffee heath bar ice cream. like damn.

i got joel some ice cream and brought it to him, but he wanted to decompress and i wanted to see people for a little longer because i had been more or less trapped in a personal bubble all weekend and he had been more or less trapped in everyone else's personal bubbles, so the man needed some alone time. so i left him to work on what he was working on and i returned to the other room and we had our ice cream and hung out and talked for a good while. it was enjoyable and i got some work done on my capybara wooble. i may need to go back and redo what i have so far because i don't like the gaps in it. which just might be par for the course for the thickness of the string and hook, but im not wholly convinced.

regardless, it's been a good weekend and i'm glad i was able to at least be around some people for a while before the weekend was up.

we're getting food at the diner down the street tomorrow morning before heading back north. it's such a good diner and their food slaps. although that might just be my love of diners talking.

anyway, it's time to sleep. my hips hurt. i can't wait to sleep in our bed again.

i did not eat ANY donuts today. this was a major improvement.

i also ate three meals and exceeded my protein goal for the day.

however, it did not help the headache i had most of the day. or my knee pain. both of which were bad. now the headache is gone and it's bedtime, but the knee still hurts.

i stayed in bed this morning for a good while because i did a lot of work yesterday and i was not looking forward to starting python because of my track record with it.

but i did need to do my stats homework, so after i finished the breakfast dean and joel got for me from mcdonald's, i got up and got ready and packed my stuff and went down to the con space to work. i was able to complete the homework easily, and i'm glad it was as easy as it was. i also emailed my writing professor because communicating my group this week has been like trying to talk to a brick wall. ferris bueller's economics teacher heard more from ferris bueller than i have from my classmates. it's not even crickets. the crickets have left. it's just nothing. despite my efforts and messages and posts and ideas i have gotten nothing back.

so i sent my professor an email saying as much and went along with my day.

i eventually needed food, so i took my stuff and plugged my laptop in and grabbed my keys and wallet and headed out. i didn't know what i wanted, so i drove as i thought. i actually ended up in hollis, at lull farm again, and then on the way back i didn't stop at the sandwich place i wanted to eat at. i stopped at a different pressed than usual instead and got a tuna sandwich.

back at the con, i went back upstairs and laid down for a while, happy to rest. dean eventually ordered wings for the three of us, which i happily ate all of in a relatively voracious manner. we didn't receive forks, but i said "no worries. i'm built different" because i had my car utensils with me. so i ate my grownup chicken nuggies with chopsticks. great idea.

i went back down to the con space and the room where i put my backpack was locked, so i sat around and played games until i could go get it and work on my python some more.

and i gotta tell you, the difference between learning in the class i took and then learning with this one is night and day. i can remember what we talked about. i can think of uses. there are tiny projects as you go along, and the IDE we're using is MUCH easier to handle than jupyter notebooks. hate that shit. its interface is like R, which is much nicer. it's plain. it's easy to save things. i can set the windows side by side without any issues whatsoever. and the way it's being explained makes sense to me. and the person who made the videos is incredibly supportive and the biggest cheerleader and it makes me feel happy because i'm beginning to understand and the professor is happy that i'm doing a good job. it's that psychology shit and it's 10/10 working like it's supposed to. thank you mr python bible video professor, i'm doing my best so you have good reason to be proud of me.

and i worked on that until like 10:00 when we all packed shit up and came upstairs.

i love conventions where i get to room with joel and dean. dean is cool. he reminds me of jb. i know i said that yesterday but it's so real. we love the dean. and we of course love the joel. we are glad that the joel has a best friend who is the dean.

i managed to catch up on my schedule for data analytics!

pros:

course is done

exam is done

i'm 16 days ahead of schedule according to the spreadsheet

cons:

headache

no convention time :(

so tomorrow it's on to python to see if it'll make more sense than it did the first time.

BUT i literally stayed in the room all day today except for a brief trip to market basket for a few things, including tape for my toe, antibacterial cream for the tiny cut on my finger, red bull for joel, and grapes for lisa. i also got chocolate covered donuts, the little bags that hostess puts out.

i have eaten nothing but donuts today.

i am looking forward to having protein tomorrow.

but as i was doing the data stuff today i had my feet up and was snuggly with my sweatshirt and sockies and blankie by the air conditioner. so that was great, actually. happy it's a thing. literally just whole-ass thriving today.

AND i took a nap. if i hadn't i wouldn't have been able to finish the stuff today lmao. i stopped being able to read and that's when i knew it was time for a break. it happens sometimes.

and joel has been in and out today. he stopped by after my nap with logan to drop things off and pick up other things. and dean is here now, which is delightful. i love that guy. very much reminds me both of my brother and joel's dad in his mannerisms and personality. he's a good egg.

i broke my toe today.

it hurts like a motherfucker.

i wish i didn't break it.

it hurts a LOT.

but i broke it after physical therapy this morning, so that at least was fine.

so now i have twice the pain and it's all down the outside of my left leg, from my knee to my baby toe.

i did not expect it to be so vividly broken. but here we are. very purple and swollen. ready to have it put back to normal.

anyway.

i got a lot done today. finished power BI and started the next one - i have to learn tableau tomorrow so that'll be fun. and then it'll be learning more data analytics and then the exam the following day and onto python for hopefully a better time learning.

but today was so goddamn hot. it was miserable. sweating profusely trying to put stuff in my car to take to the convention when it was 90°+ outside AND 80+% humidity was a bad time. i really just wanted to melt. i stayed in the air conditioning for a long time.

i picked up thai food for dinner and then stopped for kochi donuts on my way down to the con, and upon my arrival i helped put things up and do all sorts of stuff. i drew a hibiscus and then made a sign for registration and i helped put up decorations and signs and i made a little bee bouncy ball a harness so it wouldn't fall out of the mouth of the dragon it was in. and i put cockatiel bling around the neck of our baby red wyrm. it's very cute.

i'm excited for the weekend. i'm not hype about my toe being as shit as it is, but i anticipate that i will need to go to the pharmacy or market basket in the morning to get medical tape to keep my toes taped together. and probably some antibacterial ointment so i can bandage my fingers because the skin at the bottom of my nail separated from the cuticle and it tore and it stings and is getting infected. so.

that all sucks.

now i'm in bed and im waiting for joel to return but im going to go to sleep despite the lights being on. my alarm is set for the morning. i just have to get up in the morning with it.

and every time i come to a convention i remember i want to make towel tags so my towels don't get used by someone else. it's one of my biggest pet peeves. like. you used your towel. use your towel again. don't touch mine. i put yours back where they were when you hung them up. don't touch mine i swear to fuck

anyway

i finally finished the sql stuff. it was like 5pm. so i didn't get to finish the power bi stuff, but i started and am a little over a quarter of the way through it. so that'll be done tomorrow at some point.

but i had lunch with my mama and her friend and i had a great big salad that was REALLY good. and i wish i had like four of them. it was great. like 9.5/10. the only drawback was the onions that i ended up picking out.

but other than that i procrastinated more and then fried my brain all day.

i'm tired but i'm gonna get breakfast out tomorrow and i gotta be up. and i have a lot more work to do.

i am hungry.

womp womp.

i did talk to leo today a little bit. he did a homie check in and asked me how i was doing. i said i was doing okay. that i was overwhelmed and just wanted to have shit move on. to move on and make forward steps toward a better future, but it feels like i'm stuck in the mud. so i'm doing as much as i can while i'm stuck here to try to get out of it faster.

i'm trying my best. and leo said he was proud of me and all of the efforts i made toward being independent and making progress. which was really nice to hear, honestly, because i don't feel like i hear it at all.

speaking of hearing things i have to make a couple phone calls tomorrow. sigh.

but i'm trying my best.

a palindrome today :)

i did not willingly get up this morning on time. i did not UNwillingly get up this morning on time. i did not in fact get up on time at all. i slept in and stayed in bed until 12:30.

i was supposed to get up at like 8:30. and as such i did not finish my SQL stuff today. i finished another halfway to done, so i'm about 70-75% finished with it. i will finish it in the morning. i have my alarms set and a new schedule written out and on top of stuff. and once i'm done with that in the morning, i'll start on the power BI stuff i'll need to do, as well.

but today, when i got up, i got ready and went to bring my mom to the doctor again. she still doesn't know how to navigate the parking garage at this particular office, but it is what it is, so i drive her to her appointments.

but as i was waiting for her in the office, i was able to pull out my phone and do some research about joel's mom's grandparents from canada. i found a bunch of stuff too, so that's really good. i need to do some more though, so whenever i get back up to canada i can see if i can get documents for her.

but i eventually came back to joel's and worked on my sql stuff until maybe half an hour ago. it's now almost 12:30 and i'm ready to be asleep 5ever.

also i really want thai food.

i also plopped myself on joel for a few minutes earlier - i very much needed cuddles so i assumed responsibility to do so. so i plopped down on top of him and held on for a while. i was able to breathe so much easier and it was really, really nice. i was happy with it.

i'm happy now.