#365ys18

I miss Panda. That's my best friend 😊 My favourite piece of shit. 🐼🐱 foreeeeevvva

So I spent 2012 & 2013 convincing myself & believing that I didn't have emotions and feelings to the point where I was making myself numb. I was in a relationship from the summer of 2011 until the beginning of 2012. It wasn't easy, but it was right. I fought myself for 6 months. I found things to occupy my time, people. I could have fixed things at the end of the year, but I was so hell bent on not feeling anymore that I pushed it away without a second thought. I didn't want to admit my feelings. That was a mistake. I was with a boy the first half of 2013. That was not a very healthy relationship in retrospect, but I kept at it because I needed something to do. A relationship isn't something to do. You can't pretend to love someone. The facade fades after a while. A real love doesn't die, either. And here I am in 2014, I've learned the hard way that it's ok to feel things. It's crucial to feel things. This is my reminder to let myself feel things. It's ok to cry. It's ok to love. It's ok to be happy.

Britt

The morning after.