#365lifenotes

So. I've come to the conclusion that n matter what job I work, everything always has drama and bitches. (Sometimes guys are the pussy bitches though). Like I'm sorry I'm doing my job as a lead to keep you working but it's sad enough that I'm a lead when I've worked here much less than yoiu. Don't sit there and be a cry baby to me saying I'm too rough in managing people. Wahhnnhh wanhh. Boo hoo. Also, I've learned that no matter what anyone does for a business it is always never enough. Workers never work hard enough, shift leads never lead (aka babysit team members) the right way and managers never are doing enough. I've been in all positions and truth be told, it's all bull shit. Why can't people just stfu for once and be happy things are going good. A little amount of money isn't good enough? It's like this people, life kills us all and we never make it out alive anyway so why not be happy? I'm sorry I even try to make anyone (my boss or the people I lead (aka babysit)) happy. It's not worth the stress or the headache. Love me or hate me, suck it up bitches this is me, and you can deal with it or leave cause when I'm happy, I'm stuck, if you aren't happy that sounds like your own personal problem to me. ;)

Being all bipolar again. So after we decided to split. He texted me and asked me if we were doing the right thing or making a mistake. So looks like we aren't split. Were just restarting. Like a reboot I guess. He's the most frustrating man I've ever met. But man does he try as hard as he can to make us work.

More than ever. I hope for more. I hope for love. Real love. No matter who with. I just want something one day that won't stop. Something that lasts. Something that works. Something that frees me from all the years of hurt and hell.

Is to get out of my house and go buy the new Taylor Swift CD. Lol.

If I am no longer friends with someone because that person made me mad and pissed me off, I do not expect you to tell me what is going on in their life. Yes, its been a year and so what if they got in a car crash and got a new car. For fucks sake I don’t care if they jumped off a bridge and died. Yeah that would be sad but if something happens to someone I don’t care about anymore and don’t really have any interest in speaking to… Please don’t tell me their life story… Its a waste of my time. P.s. please stop treating people that were once my friends as yours. Its annoying.

But I'm only human And I bleed when I fall down I'm only human And I crash and I break down Your words in my head, knives in my heart You build me up and then I fall apart 'Cause I'm only human

Pascal. That cute crazy chameleon from tangled. Yep. I'm crazy, constantly changing with my environment but I'm hanging on. I may look like Rapunzel but deep down... I'm just like pascal.

To have his babies now. Hahhaa. Yep. I could be his baby mama if he gone be my baby daddy.