#31dec2013

It's New Year's Eve. I'm lonely. I feel it all through my veins. I wish to say that you aren't the cause for this, but I can't. I miss you, dearly. I haven't heard your voice in days. It saddens me more with every hour, every minute. You said you didn't like when I was sad. I try to think of the things I adore most about you to counteract the sadness, but it doesn't always work. 

I miss you. You said you'd call, but you haven't. My heart and mind are at war. I'm torn between wanting to give you space and wanting to be with you. Wanting to just hear your voice. Your voice, that heals my soul, puts my mind at ease, and my heart at a steady beat.

I miss you. I want to cry, but I don't. I want you to want me every second of the day, but you won't. I want to be angry with you, but I can't. I love you too much and I need you more than I will admit.