#250502

I'm all in with a losing hand

Teachers called me rebel

Parents called me lost

Pastors called me devil

Had me kneelin' at the cross

Since I was a young'un, I was called names and bossed around

Back to the wall so long, call me pain's poster child

Religious home, times were different

They told me I was gifted

But to unwrap my mind was wicked

I was raised by guilt, raised by shame, raised by the rod

(Bloody calves sacrificed in the name of their God)

They claimed it was love, felt like heartbreak to me

Later they'd say "Baby, all your scars are to teach and remind you,

you can soar higher"

What good's a bird's eye view when you're in a hunter's crossfire?

Sometimes I wished I got crushed in the womb

Turned to dust in the womb

My scent of youth, an ungodly perfume

No wonder I've always hated the adults in the room

The rain, the rain will fall

And tomorrow may not come

But maybe the tears will fall to wash the pain away

I'm tryna stop the rain

(I know what it feel like)

Can't run away from the pain

I feel like I'm goin insane

Bad thoughts fillin' up my brain

Demons swimmin' inside my veins

Two seconds from fallin' into nothing

Can't run away from the pain

I'm tryna stop the rain

When I was a kid

I was convinced that I was destined for the 27 club

I'm twenty nine, sinkin' in the bathtub, sippin' gin, lookin' for another club

All the lost was a lust, dust into dust

Stray after stable, 다시 덫 뒤에 덫 Stray after stable, trap after trap

And every night, I put my shadows on

But you know how much I hate my status quo?

"Be positive" I know

But you gotta know my life is out of love

All the lessons learned already, comin' out of trust

Keep my mind steady but it's hard to readjust

Nothing stops time but the clock will turn to rust

Pain and rain, they still stay the same

Got me lookin' for the exit just to entertain

Pain and rain, think I'm goin' insane

Gotta turn off my phone tonight

Can't run away from the pain

I feel like I'm goin' insane

Bad thoughts fillin' up my brain

Demons swimmin' inside my veins

Two seconds from fallin' into nothing

Can't run away from the pain

I'm tryna stop the rain

I'm tryna stop the rain

I'm tryna stop the rain

Big Ocean ✧ Attention

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