Before I shared my running and certainly strength training adventures, there was yoga. Like most plus size women, I was reluctant. Too fat. Not flexible. Gassy. Too slow. Too pretentious and elitist. The list goes on. My friend encouraged me to go to one class and I fell in love with vinyasa flow, especially hot yoga. I find myself questioning how did I let it fall to the wayside and I realize that I, Miss Potty Mouth, drew back from sharing my yoga experience with social media because the comments were passively sexualized. "LOL, there you go thirst tapping again..." "... you're a mother. Why would you take a picture of yourself doing yoga in the nude." "That pose would be great for fucking." "Bet that ass super flexible on dick..." Some of these things were posted in inbox or directly on my Facebook page. Don't believe me... entertain yourself with the comments posted 2 years ago. Do I think I'm a sexual being? Absolutely. Am I beautiful? Fuck yeah. Do I feel radiant in those moments? Yes. Am I doing this for your attention? Not really. Here's the thing: I am an over sharer on activities that I love but it's never posted for your approval. There will be comments, feedback and such but you are not what makes me share. I'm passionate about yoga, just as I am about working out and running. If I start doing this for likes, hearts and social media bullshit, I'll lose my joy in this. It'll be a job. So why do I practice yoga? For clarity. For strength. For growth. To feel something selfishly and offer a part of myself onto my mat. I share to keep us all inspired, not by my body, but the burning flame within us that keeps us going. I'm going to start sharing again and not feel so reluctant about the possible shit head feedback. I have a thick layer of skin when it comes to my sports but I realize my weakness in my practice. There's a lesson to be learned in everything. Day One: Crow Pose #21yogadays challenge. Held for 30 seconds. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #yogi #yogainspiration #namaste #yoga #yogaeverydamnday #yogachallenge #lessonslearned #crowpose #asana #yogaprogress #yogapractice #personalgrowth #hellobeautiful (at Bedford–Stuyvesant, Brooklyn)
