#21yo

Hi guys! I haven't been posting anything for like 4 years...

Unexpected, right? I just think how much i've changed for these years, but I still love mbti and anime (i don't spend as much time as i did in high shool but still).

This year i'm graduating from university, it's kinda scary .

But today i passed my final chinese exam that makes me really happy. 虽然我的中文的水平不太高，但是现在我可能写和说比较琉璃。

My mom asked me what should the theme of the cake be. I showed her some ideas, like Loki, Winter Soldier, Supernatural. And eventually we came to the agreement that we could do the theme Winter Soldier.

Since it's a small party and we can't spend that much money, my mom and I did the birthday cake and all the food. The decorations are basically red and silver or white. We had to improvise a lot.

We are far from being professionals and couldn't do anything that specific, so only those that know his red star knows what the cake is about.

I'm very proud of the final result and I couldn't be happier.

Here are some photos, I might update them later.

Btw "feliz aniversário" means happy birthday in portuguese.

i think i have changed in the past year. i think i am smarter, better, stronger. i think the person i was a year ago would be proud of me.

this is the mantra of every twenty-something-once-rebellious-but-now-just-tired individual when they age another year. but what if i haven't changed? what if i'm still the same person i was a year ago? what if i'm still the same person in five, ten, fifteen years?

is it really so bad to stay the same?

the culture i'm constantly surrounded by is saturated with the words grow, change, become. why do we have to change to be better? and why is being better the goal? aren't we all still trying to figure it out?

this is not to say that change is bad. i am still learning who i am as a person, and i am still learning to fall in love with her; to do that, i must change my viewpoints, i must change my ways of thinking. but do i have to change myself as i learn? or can i accept who i am with open arms, loving her for her strengths as well as her weaknesses, her perfections as well as her flaws? must i sacrifice the person i am now for the person i could potentially become?