#21w2d

I’m so tired of the constant exhaustion regardless of how much or how well I sleep, of the heartburn, of not being able to take pain killers, of not being able to eat or drink what I want, the SPD pain when I walk or move at all, the constant dry sinuses, the congestion and not being able to breathe at night, the having to pee all the time, the being thirsty all the time… I’m tired of the feeling that my heart is skipping a beat or palpitating after I’ve had a meal. Of not being able to lay on my back, or my stomach, or enjoy any sort of sexy time, at all.

Again maybe I'm reading to far into it. But i didn't even ask for a genetics consult. Does this mean something's wrong? And why would it be before the new ultrasound?

She's not even answering her phone now. They've been open for almost two hours. And I've work in a few hours, yet I'm still waiting. She said she'd try to make it all fit in one day- which I feel they should, since it's their error.

Hello, Monday. I’ve been off of work since Thursday and overall it was a really lovely weekend. B went ice fishing from Thursday to Sunday (aren’t those photos he took incredible??) so I took the time off of work to be on full-time mommy duty for the long weekend.

Sleep-wise, what a mixed bag. Friday night we were up together 11:30-4, basically. The following night, though, I decided not to rush to his aid whenever he started to cry. Obviously the right move, I know, but those mama instincts are strong. I typically wanna check on him as soon as he starts fussing. What happened when he started to cry and no one came into his room? He rolled over and fell back asleep. Every time. I didn’t have to get out of bed that night. So I told B about it, and we did the same thing with the same wonderful results again last night. Could this be a new step in the right direction to getting our little dude to be more independent at night? I think so. I’m definitely hopeful.

We mostly stayed inside all weekend due to pouring rain and then a crazy ice storm, but one very bright spot: I got to see @operationkay10 and her daughter on Saturday! So overdue and so nice to get together. We finally exchanged Christmas gifts and ate delicious pasta for lunch and got to see our little humans interact. So cool!

The other reason we didn’t go out much is my SPD.. I ran to the grocery store with pep Friday morning and regretted that decision for the rest of the day. Carrying him in his car seat at 5 months pregnant is apparently no longer going to work. The SPD is fired up in a major way. I’m in pain whenever I walk or move at all. I ordered a support band to wear and I’m hoping that helps. In the back of my mind, I’m thinking about the fact that I’m supposed to be returning to the office 3 days a week starting next month and already thinking how unmanageable that seems. Hopefully they’ll be flexible with me if and when the time comes. I finally told them I’m pregnant last week, and of course it went well, so that’s a start! 😅

I did much more cooking over the weekend than I had anticipated — I made a big batch of pasta and meat sauce, and big batches of steamed veggies and mashed sweet potato and cauliflower for pep. Trying to be productive when you’re the only parent or caretaker is HARD, y’all. New respect for single parents everywhere — and I only had to do it for 3.5 days.