#20x21

august 2023

**All of these fics are rated M or above**

In vague chronological order:

Incubus - 8 Chapters, 33k words - Dana Scully/Clarice Starling (Scarling) - X Files/Silence of the Lambs Crossover - Even though I could've done more with the ship it felt like such a short-lived fling. They still make me soft and proud thinking of it though, and I liked writing a story that was basically an episode of the X Files, and one of the buggy ones too. 2015ish

One Thousand Unfolded Cranes - 4 Chapters, 19k words - Majima Goro/Makimura Makoto (Majimako) - Yakuza 0 - I know I should be putting Smoke Over Sunshine for the majimako pick as that feels like the magnum opus in a lot of ways, but genuinely this is my favorite one I ever did with them. I just think I really nailed detail and theming here, much as I love and miss the Sunshine girls. idk, smoke over sunshine comes off to me now as like...well the writing comes off as more juvenile, it was my first foray into writing like, sex and stuff in any earnest attempt, for example. This one isn't explicit, I just think of Smoke Over Sunshine as a turning point and this is the first refinement after. 2018

Speaking to Flowers - 21 Chapters, 148k words - Tseng/Aeris Gainsborough (Tserith) - FF7 (og) - If you had told me I would be writing FF7 fic as an adult 5 years ago I'd have believed you were lying. If you told me I'd written 350k words worth of fic for one ship alone between the years of 2020-2023 and really only stymied by writing a self-published book I'm not sure I would've survived the sentence. Tserith started out as a haha joke with the scenario that was the first chapter to this fic and then it spiraled out of control -- and in that uncontrol I finally, finally, truly started tackling actual interracial issues, refugee immigrant pains, and many many other things I had maybe brushed upon before -- or in some cases like an unpublished majimako chapter was too afraid to post about it! So while this fic is extremely explicit and wantonly so...I don't know. I'm really grateful for it. I don't think I could be writing what I am today without it. 2020-2022

Post-canon Silent Hill 4 fic Rating; M Wordcount: 52,357 Pairing: Henry/Eileen (20x21) Summary: She has not seen Henry in seven years, and in desperation she searches for him to know if life haunts him the way it haunts her. Canon-typical PTSD, non-penetrative smut, asexual Henry Townshend, Eileen Galvin-centric.

[Read on AO3]

Notes: In lieu of sharing more snippets I just want to say that I'm very happy that I was able to write this fic. Some things I think I could've spruced up a bit, but in a lot of ways this fic took a Lot out of me emotionally and while it somehow became a part of a (long) recovery I'm happy to lay it to rest as-is. It'll be alright. It will.

Rated: M (Mature themes, eventual smut, implied/referenced rape, dark canon-typical themes) Pairing: Eileen/Henry Post-canon, lingering trauma, relationship issues, eventual healing. Eileen-centric for the most part. Asexual (sex indifferent) Henry Townshend

She has not seen Henry in seven years, and in desperation she searches for him to know if life haunts him the way it haunts her.

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It was too alien to know what to feel, seeing her colors not only reversed but so tinted orange it was hard to understand that she was looking at herself. The feeling was not unfamiliar. Eileen waited for Henry’s guidance, watching his head tilt at an angle as he assessed them.

“...They look good.”

“Good?”

“To develop,” he clarified, “Don’t need a, do-over.”

Blunt, dry, didn’t instill real emotional confidence, very Henry—and thus easy for her to trust whatever process he had. Being patient with him kept her alive. She could be patient for one more day. And the day after that. She had to be, in order to survive—even if she knew being with Henry would mean better than surviving. He kissed the top of her head. She had tilted into it.

"well all the other sketches in this book are either too suggestive or spoilers for your books so maybe doodle smth else to post?"