#20240119

yesterday i met up with E and we had american pancakes (theyre quite different from slavic ones; slavic ones are thin like crêpe) and they were actually really yummy! we drove her sister to her driving lessons, and while we waited for her we went shopping. i got myself two new lipglosses! unfortunately theyre sheer and dont have any colour to them :( at least they smell nice and taste sweet.

the next weeks will be filled with lots of studying for exams.. im really nervous, more so than the last years.. but it's okay!! its the year of the dragon, its my year so i am certain that i will succeed in everything. und hetzen bringt ja auch nichts.. its no use wishing for the future to be different when it didnt even happen.

i found two blogs that like evgenij onegin too... i will lose sleep going through the essays and what not. it'll be worth it.

also i cant wait for summer!!! day ?? of me saying that. but i really cant wait!!! i will listen to mystery of love on repeat and i will lay in a spot of light in the living room, and the birds will come back and they will sing, and the sky at night will look less lonely and i will be able to sleep with an open window at night and listen to the sounds of the trains driving in the distance, and it will never truly be night anyways because the shadow of the earth will never really reach completely.

im trying to take more photos throughout my days, because i want to add them here! since im too lazy to print them and glue them in my physical diary (welches ich btw sehr vernachlässigt habe, aber andererseits habe ich zur zeit auch keine tiefen geheimnisse, die ich mit nichts und niemanden teilen möchte außer mir selbst und Gott).

random pictures from december 2023 i believe ft. my friends doodles of us as cats