#20231011

Ok so I didn’t log yesterday but that’s ok I mean all I did yesterday was go on my phone too much and revise for a mandarin oral that I fucked up today. I saw my friend on the train, nice surprise. He was with friends so I didn’t want to interrupt so I kinda just stood there. They were like “oh ur friend is here” I’ve only met them like once before and they reacted that way that time as well. I feel like he talks about me?? Not sure. I went to Blackpink with him, was easier to go w eachother. Literally the only other Blink I know. I think he stans Newjeans and Le Ssefarim now too. Anyway one of my friends knows him as that guy who also likes kpop so ... . But the thing is right I met him on the train bc he was in the same class as this guy I knew. Big coincidence bc he's my brother's friends brother. Anyways he's an icon. He only stans girl groups tho which is a bit sad. Ngl probably how he thinks about me bc BP is pretty much to only gg I *stan*.

나는 그래도 네게 슬픈 소식보단 기쁜 소식이 넘쳤으면 좋겠고, 네게 우울함이 익숙한 날보다 행복이 당연한 날의 연속이면 좋겠고, 서럽고 비극의 날들은 잠시 지나가고 늘 그렇듯 다시 웃었으면 한다. 물론 네가 어떤 모습으로 살아가든 그것마저 사랑하겠지만, 가끔 세상의 어떤 꽃은 만개한 환희로 피어나기로 했다.

최근의 나는 꽤나 많은 것이 안정화되었다.