#2021bdays

I may have chosen the Survey Corps, but not because I’m not afraid of the titans. And I’m not going to say something like, “skilled soldiers have a duty to join the corps.” Listen. Seriously, I’m not in a hurry to die like Eren. Don’t lump me in with him. And nobody convinced me to put my life on the line. This isn’t the kind of job you can do without really choosing it yourself.

Krista... I felt the same. That it would have been better if I was never born at all. I was hated by the world just for existing. I... to give countless people joy, I gave up my life. But from that time, there was a wish I held in my heart. If someday, I was given a second chance at life... this time... I would live for no one but myself!

I’ve been thinking every day since coming here. How did things turn out this way? Ruined minds and bodies. People with no freedom left. People who have even lost themselves. What kind of person would want to go to war if they knew they were going to end up like this? But, there was something there, all along. For most of us, that something is not our own free will. We’re forced to by others, or by our environment. That’s why the people who push themselves into hell see a different hell from the rest of us. They see something beyond that hell. Maybe it’s hope. Maybe it’s yet another hell. I don’t know which it is. The only people who do know are the ones who keep moving forward. 

I can’t be a good girl, and I don’t wanna be God either. But when I see people crying to themselves, saying they’re not needed... I wanna tell those people that’s just not true. No matter who. No matter where. I’ll come to their rescue.

I have a father waiting for me. And others have people just as important to them, too. I didn’t used to care about anything. But it’s different now. I think I’ve committed irredeemable sins. But if it meant I could return to my father... I’d do it all over again. 

I’m sorry, Eren. I won’t give up anymore. I’ll never give up again. Once I’m dead, I won’t even be able to remember you. So I’ll win, no matter what. I’ll live, no matter what!

I became a Warrior candidate because I didn't want you to inherit the Armored Titan. I wanted you to live a long life, so that we could get married and you could be happy forever.

Being an Eldian born in the zone, people spit at me when I go outside. I’ve had a lot of miserable memories, but that’s why I try so hard. To show the world that Eldians are good people. So that someday, we could be proud of our Eldian armbands. I worked hard believing it could happen. But they crushed everything! The internment zone is my home. It’s where the people I care about live. Isn’t trampling on it unforgiveable?!