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Ciğer tava (AA battery for scale) 8.50€

①みずちゃんが先日【うみの誕生日プレゼント！】とくれた。フランフランの櫛と、畳むとハート型のハンカチ。大事に使おうありがとう。私のバースデーは8月です。

②かつてセフレにガチ恋してた私たちはあの頃セフレがいなくなったら死んじゃう！くらいの信仰心熱い人間だったのに、今ではお互い大好きな人がいて【あの時棄ててくれてありがとうって感じ！】と別人みたいに生きているので人生面白いなあとつくづく思う。

Never been so...

Free

I have always attached the meaning of my existence to another human

A hopeless romantic

I would give him my heart and say, “here!

Here is all I am and everything I have to give!”

And all I expected in return

Was everything

I just want someone to love me the way that I love them

Is that, so much to ask?

I want

All of you

Except, the version of you in my head that you’ve convinced me is real can only keep doing this dance of deception for a little while longer

You can only impress me until you run out of face paint

And it all washes away and I get

You

Just you

The real you

I’m not sure who I hated more

The real you

Or the version of me that I became trying to survive you

The loneliest road was the one I walked while trying to hold your hand

While I bare your child

The most humbling road was the one I walked alone

While looking at my newborn son

I have never been so free

Liberated by existential bliss

And found in purpose

In love

Estee Lauder, credit Estee Lauder Indonesia