#2016.04.09

music is so magical, honestly. like, me and my boys were sitting around, bored out of our minds, and i put on sex and candy by marcy playground and we went from being bored in silence to being bored while instinctively murmuring along to the music

update on the food situation, in case anybody reads my posts and was concerned: i convinced my dad to take me to the grocery store yesterday and i got three foods i like. my mom also apparently went shopping yesterday and didn't buy me anything, again. i explained to them about the way eating the same one or two (three on a good month) foods every day is making me really sick and all that and my mom said that i need to write out a list of foods i'll eat that is as close to exhaustive as possible and she'll bring the list with her next time she goes shopping. she DID buy a few different types of pasta yesterday, but they're for specific recipes she's making. i'll see if she'll let me have a box or two. i'm hoping that she'll go out sometime in the next week or two and buy some fruit, because my body is starting to punish me for not eating a balanced diet. my friend's mom, who is legit a second mom to me, bought me my own bottle of V8 with her own money yesterday and told me to take it home. i had dinner with them last night and drank two glasses, and my friend's sister also had two glasses because i told her she could have some if she wanted to, and then i drank a glass at breakfast this morning, which was the last of it. my mom told me at christmas that she would buy me V8 every now and then as a year-round christmas present, and she hasn't because we've had a lot of unforseen expenses to pay, but i think she might buy me it here and there. i'm buying a carton of Native cigarettes at the reservation sometime this month, and it's $20. i sell them to other kids for $5/pack (that's the standard for secondhand Native cigarettes. on the rez, they're $2.50, but kids around here sell em for five bucks a pop in order to make a profit. and it's still less expensive than buying a $10 pack at a gas station), so i should have a minor income for the next few months until i get a job. four packs sold buys another carton, and any extra packs can go toward food that my parents can't afford.