#2-8-16

I don’t know if the discoloration of the clouds this morning are from pollution, but it’s making me feel that way..

Im really slacking on my classes I jus failed a test for physics. Like what?

Ugh okay so like I dont know why I am the way I am. So there is this guy and he is SO CUTE AND HAS THE BEST NOSE and I see him often in the computer lab right by he always sits far away and im usually with scorpio. But today i was in there alone and it had gone from really packed to nearly empty and thats usually when I go to pee because I usually get to get my spot back because I have to take all my stuff with me when going to pee. So I was packing my stuff up and logging out of the computer when he came in and saw me and smiled and waved and I smiled and stopped what I was doing and he sat right next to me so I pretended like instead of packing up I was settling down. So I really had to pee and he was sitting right next to me and he was so so so cute I wanted to scream. A few minutes in I asked him if he could watch my stuff and was like yes definitely! So I went to pee and came back and he tried to start talking to me but I dont know why im so odd and awkward....I felt like I completely discouraged him from talking to me. And sure enough he kinda stopped and I went back to the computer and jus kicked myself for being so uncomfortable.

Wishing I didn't feel my mortality as heavily as I do now.

im so bloated & its really fcking w my body image issues, so thats fcking chill.

I want to drink until it hurts from the inside, out.