at this time last year, I was promising myself a lot of things. more sincerely than most years, I tried. it wasn't a bad year, but it was a hard one. the kind of hard where you know you're living and learning, but it doesn't make the burden weigh any lighter. I tried, still. sincerely, truly, relentlessly tried. and that's the most important part, I think. to keep going because another new year will come around whether you cross all of those resolutions of your list and pop your champagne or not. we can choose change at any single given point that we find ourselves ready for it, whether it's before, on, or after January 1st... . but for some reason, even considering the complete illusion that is time, this thing we're constantly being told to obediently race, there's something about a new year. there's something oddly empowering, be it cosmic or placebo, about starting the calendars all over again that makes the air feel more cleansed. it's humbling to look back and remember how much can happen in just. one. year. opportunity. a clean slate. pure. new. . I don't have a list of things I want to do more, do less, and accomplish in 2017. but I do have a goal to make myself proud of what I look back on in another year from now. I want to look back and know that I lived my unapologetically genuine life; the one that fear keeps me from living. I want to live passionately, fearlessly, and for me. . in celebration of this journey, I dusted off my camera lenses (literally dusted - thank you for the cleaning, @ronniescavetta) and fought the fear of imperfection and shot one of my favorite bands. and to continue this journey, I snuggled up with a blanket and a cup of hot tea, lit some candles, threw on a record in the company of my very own self, and looked at my pictures. in the simplest of ways, the skin that I was in then felt right. . may this be the year I lay off the excuses once and for all and believe in myself a little bit. . . #envyonthecoast #eotc #1stvows #musicphotography #timeisanillusion #journaling #welcometomidnight (at East Meadow, New York)
