#1stepforward2stepsback

Raewyn Aranui

This is my driving back and forth to Erwin 3 times look to get bad news on a job that is almost done. Go figure. #2020sucks #oldhouserenovation #nothingsimple #1stepforward2stepsback #generalcontractor #homerepairs (at Erwin, North Carolina) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJUZlpRL6Yi/?igshid=1anx6okhe1r0j

Unfortunately ✌🏾 #1stepforward2stepsback #overit #donewastingtime

If you out killing cops you are a part of the problem black or white . Because you didn't solve anything. You made it worse. The men who were killed by cops are gonna be swept under the rug and lost in vain. The media is gonna forget about them and glorify what happen here and the public is gonna lose sympathy with our struggle. The cops who were killed had no part in what happened. This is causing strain on a bigger problem #1StepForward2StepsBack #2WrongsDontMakeARight

Sweat dries, blood clots, bones heal...suck it up darlin...hallowed be thy gains on this Sunday. #trexstruggles #1stepforward2stepsback #progress #teamlastsetco #teamlastset

It's a cosmic comedy I swear Nati and I had found our new home. It's a bit more expensive than we'd like, and it's twice as far from work, but it's a nice safe neighborhood with a fitness center and pool, daily trash pickup, good for my dog Glados, all around healthy environment. We had to be out of our old place by a strict deadline so we had little choice other than to take it. We spent weeks organizing and packing and took care of our paperwork and were even able to scrounge up enough for the hefty deposit and fees. Then, the day before moving day, Nati is let go from her job. Just dropped that same day. The job she bent over backwards for, who claimed to have loved her and just days before were talking to her about a raise, who knew that she was in the middle of moving, abandons her because of budget cuts. I couldn't think of a worse time for them to let her go, because now we've got the next rent due in February and no idea how we're going to be able to afford it and the bills. In 2 weeks we might be in a worse situation than ever before...

Fml, it's always the bad timing..when you actually want to be with me when i can tell you how i feeI, I have an exam. When you tell me a guy is hitting on you, and you tell me your hanging out with him the next day, jealousy makes me ask questions I rather not ask..while I'm stuck in another stupid exam in that same day..I don't know how I feel right now..jealous, scared, frustrated, alone..jealous that he gets time with you when it could have been me, scared of making the wrong move that could damage our relationship even more, frustrated that every chance that comes my way for me to tell you how I feel is blocked by something (exam, person, etc..), and alone because I got no one to talk too, other than my own mind, thoughts, and heart...and here i am sitting on my bed typing on this iPad, speaking like im talking to myself..I don't expect you to read this, and if you do, thank you for taking the time to read through all this, but I don't expect this post to change how you view me now that I ruined your night...but all I'm trying to say is, I miss everything about you...and I don't know what I would do with my life if your not in it..