17 weeks tomorrow. I’ve had teeensy tiny little whispers of sensation that I know are the baby kicking, but they’re so, so few and far between still. Which I know is normal at this point.
Over the last week, it’s gotten so much harder to “be okay” with the fact that I can’t really, really feel him yet. I keep feeling more or less… normal. I mean, I have a bump and I get tired easily, and I’m always hungry, but I feel pretty normal. And my brain keeps going to a place where I can’t feel him and I feel normal because there’s something wrong. I think because I so dearly need him to be okay. I haven’t had any significant cramping, no bleeding… no signs of a problem.
I’m sure he is okay. But most of the time I really can’t shake this sensation that something’s wrong because everything feels more or less normal and I can’t feel him kicking much at all. Logic and emotions are at opposite ends of the spectrum on this one.
I can’t wait til my next appointment on the 8th.
