#135am

The person I truly adored since seventh grade passed away a couple days ago, and when I heard the news of him passing away, it fucked me up so bad because we were really close and as soon as we got to high school we ended on really bad terms. My feelings for him eventually went away, but I still checked up on him...its just so crazy how life is...God took you home too soon Jonny...ill never forget when you would yell, "China cochina" and I would yell back, "Cara de Nalga" 😂 i just can't believe it...but now you're in peace...you'll be missed. But never forgotten homie. Pretty Boy Swag by Soulja was and always will be your anthem, and I'll be bumping it everyday with you on my mind. I know you're keeping it lit up there...you happy, young, beautiful soul...until next time ❤💔🙏🏽

Despite what Ive said in the past, Im really fucking happy about this and god damn. I think this will be good for me. I have a cherry blossom now 💜

I hope you're well

Im hungry and wanna go home

Can't sleep

Man I love my parents for bringing me into this world and raisin me. But gaah Damn when I'm on, idk if they're gonna love me or not. They already aren't proud. Which is enough for me to say fuck it. But I love them, and they hate the grind. Even tho I be living by thier rules , they see one thing and assume everything. They really making it hard for me to want to give back in the future. And if I did want to, I honestly dont know if they'd take the things I'd want to give them. I mean I'm thankful for my parents. But fuck. They look at me and my life and think he's a mess doing his stupid chinga eras he will never grow up. At least that's what I think. And I understand people pretty good. I just, sometimes I wish they could just be in my shoes and see the journey I'm on. The way I see it and how I view my path to success. I'm gonna make it. Bet your ass on it. I'm no fuck up. I dont give a fuck tho. They gon miss me when I'm gone.