#12052015

©juri

Today at 11 am marks 2 years since Wade, the best judgy friend best dog and floof in the world ever, joined my sister in heaven. December 5, 2015 was the worst day for me. There is this void in my soul Wade filled and a side of the bed that will both always be empty. How I miss you every day. 💔 #Wade #goldendoodle #dogsofinstagram #RainbowBridge #12052015 #dogsarefamily (at The Palace on Calavite Street)

As I stumbled into the deep waters, I saw myself trying to grasp the depth of the hidden: hidden pains, hidden desires, hidden thoughts, and a hidden self that struggled to escape. The serenity of diving without fear, and gasping for breath is beyond any comfort luxury could give. The heatwave of emotions ravaged in my mind, bringing me closer to the boundaries I, oh so dearly, would not like to reach. It scared me, for a short while, but yet it freed me. I had the reason to be selfish. I had a reason to give in to cowardice. I had a reason to be freed from the binding seals that succumb me. It was for a short while though, but I used every second of it. I was judged, yes, but at least, for a short while, I had a reason. The world circled around me, and along the apparition of the faces was the lucidity of my emotions. The blankness within my soul that kept me up at night unfolded before me. Everything surrounding me was blurry but never have I seen such clarity.

Christmas Party with the Nerds 👓 #werewolf #resistance #food #Starwars #booze 🎄🎁🎁🎁🎉🍻🍷🍴🍕 #latergram #12052015