#12.26.13

cool books:

How To Disappear Completely and Never Be Found

Doug Richmond

The Practical Pyromaniac

William Gurstelle

The International Spy Museum Handbook of Practical Spying

Jack Barth

I Told You I Was Sick

Stamppot:

potatoes

parsnips

onions

cabbage

bouillion 

bacon

butter, salt, pepper]

spinach 

turnips

carrots

squash 

Jeremy Lin (18p-6r-2a) - Sidelights

Just a long drive back home from Vegas. I got a new maroon-colored shirt finally ! Gotta rep that Phi fam haha !!

Then, I went over to a friend's house to help make a totoro doll for his friend. It was a nice drive together to a Michael's store where we bumped into this woman who wouldn't stop talking to us !! I was like, we got this.. chill... and my friend, Billy, was like "help me get out of this mess" haha GOOD STUFF ! We eventually left to a Joann's to get wool felt but happened to see the same lady once again !! We quickly grabbed regular felt sheets and left ! What a coincidence ? I think not.. ! Because we ended up watching Howl's Moving Castle and made a makeshift totoro plush in the end. I was surprised it actually worked out to be honest oops ^^;;

It was strange being alone in his room (in his own house for that matter) so I was pretty uncomfortable.. but I didn't want to think too hard about it. I couldn't stop thinking about Kevin the whole time though and I felt so bad about it. I really want to just let go and move on already. Somebody build me a bridge to get over this !! 

I don't usually post personal photos. Actually, it's been a while since I've posted anything at all, but anyway, here goes

Today's December 26th. For the past seven years I've thrown a Christmas (or rather, After Christmas) Party on this day. This is the first year I haven't.

I'm all for tradition. I'm the sentimental type. I love making things annual, monthly, weekly. I like having a little regularity in life to go back to every once in a while. But for different reasons, I just didn't feel like keeping the tradition alive this year. Things feel different.

Another friend though, threw a Christmas Party a couple days before Christmas and it was my pleasure to join in. Though I don't really know too many of them very well since I graduated a couple years before most of them, there were a couple who it was nice to get back in touch with.

In particular, Steven. It must have been about a year, a bit less, since the last time I've seen him. We caught each other up on the latest happenings in our lives, but more so than that, we spent a good hour, post-party talking about connections and friendships.

You see, I'm all for meeting and getting to know new people, but I've come to this point in my life in which I've realized that more so than continuing to make more and more friends, I want to hold onto the friends I already have and keep those relationships strong. So many of my past friendships seem to be on pause. Many more have simply stopped. And I've come to realize that there is no point trying to make every new person your best friend if you're going to end up losing that friendship because you continue to try and make more and more people your close friend.

In the end, constantly making new close friends can end up just becoming a never ending spiral of new faces.

And I'd rather have a handful of people who I know I can always share my life with, even if I can't share every experience.