#118hasmyback

(also i accidentally unfollowed you by accident for a millisecond and im so sorry omg!! 🥺)

Emmaa!! No worries hun 🧡

Have a bit of an angsty post s4 drabble~

I Was a Fool by Tegan and Sara

Do you remember me as devout? How I prayed for your calls

Eddie had been waiting for Buck to call him. Glaring at his phone whenever it didn't ring. Which was growing exhausting cause it never did. He wasn't sure why Buck had stopped calling. Or even being around. After Eddie had been able to return to accomplishing basic tasks, he had moved out. Not that he ever really moved in, always living out of a duffle bag and sleeping on the couch. But a few days ago he had gone to his loft, Eddie had thought it was a usual run to refresh his clothes or grab another uniform, but he had not returned. And over the course of those few days Eddie had missed his presence. The house felt empty and quiet. So he gave up on praying for the phone to ring and tapped the call button.

"Is everything okay?" Buck answered- that was a good sign,

"Yeah, uh, this is gonna sound stupid, but uh, I miss you?" god damn him and his foolish heart,

"oh."

"The house, it feels too quiet without you here. Reminds me of, umm-" he didn't even have to finish the thought,

"Oh, Eds, I'm so sorry. I'll be over after my shift okay? And uh, we should maybe talk."

"Yeah, I think that would be good." he smiles nervously as though Buck could see him. Maybe he was just a fool in love. Maybe they both were.

EMMA, MY LOVE! 💖

27. favorite movie(s) 30. write something for the person who sent the ask

My Nightmare is Losing You 

playlist

[1.9k| Buck Centric| Angst] 

TW: Panic Attack, Implied Eating Disorder, Alcohol as a coping mechanism

Summary: 

“I hurt all of you. And I never meant it to get that far. I almost gave up. I hurt myself. I can’t keep going like this. Bobby, I don’t know what to do. What do I do? I feel so broken and I don’t know how to fix it. And I want to fix it. So badly. I fucked up.” Buck gasps out. Bobby took the words in a bit shell shocked, he realized that the revelations that had come with his parent’s visit had torn deep into old scars of Buck's, maybe even ones Bobby had never seen. or Buck hits rock bottom and wants to get out.

Okay here are a couple that I can think of rn-

I have talked about this before in the tags a lot but acespec!eddie is so special to me and it just makes sense- I will die on this hill. But he reads so Demi to me it’s kinda crazy.

Another one I talk about in tags is Maddie and Eddie friendship! They drink wine and bond over so much. Like tell this doesn’t make sense, I dare you. Which leads to Eddie admitting his pining to Maddie (cause I think that would be amazing).

Also he/they buck my beloved. (Def Not Projecting wdym)

Buck only has one playlist. It’s just everything he likes. But it’s all fantastic.

Maddie on the other hand is very good at curating very specific playlists.

Eddie hates driving. He can and he will if he has to, but in general it just stresses him out.

emmma my love,

your song is

my favorite parts are

AND THE STARLIGHT I SEE IS A BILLION LIGHT YEARS OLD A GHOST JUST LIKE THE REST OF US

I WILL BECOME THE NEXT BIG THING I WILL LIGHT MYSELF ON FIRE IT’S TIME TO GET OUT OF BED AND BE THE STARCHILD I CAN BE

YES, I WANNA COME. LET'S GO SHOPPING, EMMA!

Bring cash because I'm broke af rn. 🤣

And I've already begun planning a heist with @rewritetheending. I shall factor you in. 😎

That's all you, Emma my love! 🥰