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Yoon Siyoon for GQ 11/2011

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Свобода, полная, абсолютная, представляет абстракцию, которая не может быть реализована ни при каких условиях. Она являет собою независимость выбора того или иного действия от каких бы то ни было внешних влияний. Однако всякий человек как живой организм сталкивается, в частности, с голодом и неподходящей для существования организма температурой (это вообще слабое животное), что заставляет его искать пищу и изменять условия среды (или находить приемлемые). В данном понимании слова никто из живущих на Земле,свободным не является.Поскольку эти ограничения, обусловленные природой, присутствуют всегда, можно сделать их «фоновыми» и, говоря «свободный человек», подразумевать «…безотносительно животных потребностей».

Тогда («убрав» физическую сторону) можно перейти к человеку как существу социальному. Здесь уже можно говорить о действительно свободном человеке. Однако, опять же, без ограничений обойтись нельзя. В каждом человеке есть некоторый «стержень», определяющий его поведение. Этот «стержень» включает в себя принятые им (человеком) моральные нормы и принципы поведения той или иной общественной группы. Не появиться эти нормы попросту не могут, потому что всякий человек, родившись, учится всему у взрослых. Как у животных, так и у людей дети перенимают общественные (если можно использовать это слово при упоминании животной стаи) порядки. Они могут с ними не согласиться, но тогда они всё равно принимают некоторые общественные порядки: те, которые, например, противоположны предложенным. Таким образом, в человеке формируются… рамки. Какие именно это будут рамки, зависит от его психики и ситуации воспитания.

Если рассуждать так, то никакой человек свободным не является, любой человек — «жертва» общества. Именно общество всегда формирует человека, именно от общества зависит, каким он будет. Это замечательное (никак нельзя здесь без оценки) восприятие происходящего позволяет снять с конкретного человека всяческую ответственность за какие-либо поступки и переложить её на общество (догадается ли оно сделать кое-что аналогичное, уже его — общества — трудность).

Несмотря на это, чувство ответственности у кого-то всё же откуда-то берётся. Некоторые решения человек всё же принимает (может принять) не по причине каких-то бихевиористических (поведенческих) норм, вложенных в него обществом, а по причине собственного желания. Здесь мы встречаемся с очень трудным вопросом осознания себя как организма или чего-то в нём присутствующего. Чтобы не уходить в эти дебри, просто примем предположение о том, что такие решения, которые человек может принять сам, существуют.
Вот именно в этом, кажущемся, возможно, маленьким, множестве, человек может быть свободным.

111011 浙江卫视奇妙见面会录制 Suzy

111011 浙江卫视奇妙见面会录制 Suzy

111011 浙江卫视奇妙见面会录制 Suzy

I wore my blue shirt with white stripes, 'cause Justine had a shirt like that too and he wore it last Tuesday. I've made a bet to myself that if Justine wore the same shirt as mine, then I guess our possibility for the both of us is high and if not, then maybe we're not really meant to be.

I was on my way in school when Justine texted me "magandang umag pare. :)" and I replied to him "Good morning din pare :)" but he didn't reply anymore after that. I came to the room with Herbert and Nikole. Justine, Ronald, Cedrix and the others were already there. Ronald was making our take home quiz with  Justine and the other boys. So I went to Cedrix and sat besides him. I saw that Justine wore the same shirt as I have so I felt happy. Cedrix noticed it but I told him to let it go 'cause it's just a coincident.

We checked our Final Exam in ITF. I've got 51 over 80 and Justine got 56. After ITF, we ate on the chapel again (Cedrix, Lieza, Ronald and I). Then Nadine and Karl went to us and they make our assignment in math. I was just sitting there waiting for them to finished 'cause I'll just copy their answers. Then we talked about some tagalog songs and Cedrix brought up that I'm always singing "Kunin mo na ang lahat sa akin". He said "Kunin mo na ang lahat sa akin, wag lang si tagged @j". So Ronald sang it too and said "mga pangit lng kumakanta nun eh, kasi ung lyrics nya ay 'itsura plang sakin lamang ka na, ligwan mo sya, cguradong mgwawagi ka.'". Then I sang along with him a little bit 'cause I knew the song too. It was like he's saying to Nadine that I'm a head over her because she's singing that kind of song. I felt happy 'cause I knew that she realized that it was like she's admitting her defeat because of that song. Then Ronald said "oh face to face na yan oh". Then I just realized that Ronald was right about the lyrics. I just laughed 'cause Nadine was like awkward because of that topic. Then Nadine suddenly changed the topic and asked about the math question. 

In our math class..

We had a quiz in math, we all went to the 6th floor hurriedly 'cause we want to seat at the back. Justine and the other boys were in front of us. Justine looked back and he saw me walking behind him. And then we came in the room and seat on the chairs. Kevin and Justine were talking and then Justine suddenly looked at me so I immediately looked away. I bet Kevin was telling him to look at me 'cause I'm also looking at him. We had a count down. Justine was number 18 and I was 30. We will both answer the EVEN question. I was happy that he got #18 'cause in the alphabet, letter R was the 18th letter.

In our Filipino class..

Dianna was the one who'l start the report followed by Regine. Justine transfer on the chair behind Ronald which was also in front of me. Then Ronald and I were talking so I know Justine was listening. Ronald called Gio and told him quietly that Justine and I have the same shirt. Gio asked me "bkit ba lagi kaung mgkaprehas ng kulay ng tshirt ni Justine?" so I told him that he's wrong. Then when it was already our turn (Gio, JayAr and mine's turn), I walked up to our prof and told him that we will be having a debate. The three of us came in front and listen to what our prof was telling us to do. Our debate was about "if divorce should be granted here in the Philipines". While he is explaining, I can't understand anything 'cause all I hear was the teasing of our classmates. I head someone said "nice Justine!", "nice one! parehas sila ng damit oh~" and I heard Herbert said "couples' shirt!". I could feel that they started to looked at our shirt and all of them started to say "ayyiiieee~". I heard Kevin said "ayos lng yan, Nadine". Then someone suddenly sang "kunin mo na ang lahat sa akin" and they started to laugh. I was feeling hot and I was smiling but they can't see it 'cause my back were facing them.

We stood in front and begun our debate. JR made the introduction, I looked at Justine and he was not looking at me but he's just fanning himself. I guess he was shy again? lol. JR asked them to clap their hands so they clapped. I heard someone said "Justine, plakpakan mo daw si Rina". It was finally my turn so I read what should I had to say. There was this line that I have to say "Advance Happy Valentines Day". Then I've said it and they started to say "ayyiiee~~" again. I heard someone asked "para kanino yan?" and "knino mo b yan cnabsabe ?". I also heard "Justine, happy valentines day daw". They became noisy so I said "ui~" before I continue my line. I was sweating all over while i'm in front 'cause it was so hot under the florescent lamp. My speech was for two lovers that decided to make a promise in front of the church and our classmates was all quiet. I think they're listening to me. Kian asked me what page is it so I told him the page. Then he said "diba ito yung nsa paraiso?",  "hnd ah. iba to", "ay oo nga pla", "tungkol sa lalake yun eh", "ah oo. okay". Nadine and Levin was also sitting in front of me, besides Kian. I could see that Nadine was not happy 'cause her face was like a mad bitch. I could see that some student were there in front of our classroom, waiting for us to finish 'cause they'll use the room after us. They were looking at me, especially the boys. I had some mistake on some words 'cause I'm so nervous but I'm glad that JR was there, guiding me. Boris told me "an lakas ng boses mo", "ay mlakas b ?", "oo kya. haha". Then Kian was teasing me again by asking me "Kau na?". I just laughed at him 'cause he's funny and he laughed too. I said my last line and let JR say the rest. JR declared me as a winner and they clapped for us. We came back to our seats and prepared to go home. Gio told me that I looked haggard. I felt embarrassed 'cause I guess our classmates have the same opinion. I fixed myself a little before going out of the room. Justine was just behind me while were exiting the room. Ronald and Cedrix was walking fast so I just walked behind them.

The three of us were walking faster because we're want to ride on the next train. Ronald decided to asked some people there about the shawarma and shake. The train already passed so we decided to slow down our moves 'cause the next train will arrive after 30 minutes. We stayed there on while talking if we will buy something or not. Then Cedrix suddenly said "Rina, si Justine oh" so I looked at where he was looking. I saw Justine with the other boys. He looked at us and Ronald was asking him to let him borrow some money from him. Cedrix said "Justine, ba bye daw sabi ni Rina" but I guess he doesn't heard it and they continued walking. The Ronald asked me if Justine said Good bye to him, I said he didn't so he called shouted and called Justine, "Justine ! bkit hnd ka nagba bye kay Rina ?! and kapal ng mukha mo!". He was still walking so i just looked at him and he suddenly turned around and waved his hand at me. I guess the other boys told him to said good bye to me. The 3 of us felt satisfied that he waved at me.

We decided to buy pusit w/c only cost 3php. Xander and Pauline was with us. Then we went to the train station and waited for the train. Xander was asking me if Justine andI were already in a relationship, I told him that were not. He said that Kevin was teasing Nadine earlier so she got mad at him. Then Xander said "kinuha mo dw kc si Justine eh", "oy ! hnd ko sya knuha ah", "naks !", "sya and nagkusa", "hayup ! ayos ah ! wahahaha. sya ang kusang lumapit sau, gnun?", "hahaha ! oo gnun n nga". Then we laughed together while the 3 were just talking about something else. Ronald said that Justine answered the ODD questionnaire on our math exam a while ago but he already told our prof so that his paper would be considered. Then Ronald said "nababad trip ako kay Justine knina eh. di ba inaasar nmin sya, tpos yuko ng yuko ksi knikilig. eh yung buhok nya tumtama sa likod ko kya ayun nkikiliti ako." and Xander said "kya nga pnagpapawisan yun knina eh". So I just realized that he's feeling hot too that's why he's fanning himself. Pauline and I decided to ride on the Girls cart 'cause it's crowded on the boys' cart. I saw Justine's text to me "Ingat kayo. :)" but I wasn't able to reply 'cause my load got expired a while ago.