#11.1.16

I never thought I could be this happy in life... like, I thought I was a few years ago... but that faded away. This is a happiness that has only grown as the months have progressed... I can't lie, I tried to fight it for the past few months... shake it away... but she wouldn't let go.. she wouldn't let me go... I'm in awe of how amazing one person can truly make you feel... to be your everything and feel the same love in return. It's a different type of love... I'm not being babied... or told things to make me happy. I'm given things real... a tough love. In the past year, she's strengthened me more than I thought I could ever be.. she challenges me, makes me want to be better. For her. Over and over she's told me,"you don't know how to be happy" And she was right.. I didn't. But I'm learning to be now. I'm accepting happiness... I know every day won't be perfect, but we get through it... I'm forever thankful and blessed to have her in my life... my sunrise.. 🌻🍍🌻🍍

i went to see a band called daughter live tonight with one of my best friends, and it made me realize how much i love going to concerts. not only for the singers and the music, but because i get to see people doing something they’re passionate about; the way their eyes light up and they smile big albeit a little nervously and shyly and how they fidget when they see hundreds of eyes gazing up at them in anticipation, and these little things make everything so intimate. when they sing they just pour out their feelings in their beautiful voices, and you can hear and see and feel every emotion they’re evoking with their voice, body language and words, and when the audience cheers they smile again, a little bit of the nerves they had before gone, and you just see happiness fill their entire being; happy that people out their relate to and enjoy their works of art and growth and love. it’s just so…mesmerizing to see someone so happy, and it makes me happy as well.

Meine Haut ist krieche und Herz ist laufe. Es schmerzt aber Ich bin betäube.