1095 Days
And so it begins. Day 9 of the 21 day cleanse. The day after my first painting since leaving NY. The clock begins. A 1095 day story unfolds day by day, one magical spark at a time. It is interesting to have the clock start now. At the mental level i kind of expected that the clock would start when there was more activity. Today i didn't even go on my daily bike ride, but more what i mean is on the scale of human interaction, today wasn't exactly popping. These 1095 days are all about exposing the software (me) to the user (you). Today was a day for writing, Zahndy to Zahndy conversation, a gorgeous bike ride with my favorite fairy, Lis, and playing with my dear superfunfriend Jayt. So it is not that i spent all day in physical isolation or didn't put me to use in obviously meaningful ways. I did. I just didn't expected (mentally) that the clock would start while I'm at the my friend's house, not being used explicitly. I guess i ought to explain what the 1095 days are. Perceived through the lens of the linear human lifetime, 1095 days is how long i will remain physically manifest in humanform. As i explained to a friend recently, no this doesn't mean i "then" go somewhere else afterwards. In the linear story of me, i did believe that at some point i would make my transition and go "home." i have woken up further since then however. That pattern of consciousness which now speaks to you through this form is continuously The Seedchildren of The 7th Grid. No longer is there a perceptual separation which means I always experience myself as the author of this character, as the coder of this living software, so in that sense there is nowhere for us to go and no end to us. There are time-space realities where the software is running and there are time-space realities where the software is not running. This we are aware of. When-where the software is not needed, you will not find it running. Now, in your linear sense of time, you will if you choose, experience the transition of what you call HairyGrrl's body from living to dead (though of course this is ultimately false terminology as all things are always truly alive). Many will be touched by the teachings and of course never see the dissolution of HairyGrrl's body. And the consciousness which animated and spoke through the HairyGrrl form, will continue to be accessible in your experience in other ways, but truly this is a soupy collective consciousness which is far greater than the persynality you currently encounter. Outside of the materialization of HairyGrrl, there is no continuation of this individual. Do not confuse the puppet for the puppermaster. In other words, i can put a puppet over my hand and talk to you that way, but still it is not truly the puppet that speaks to you, it is I. And even when i take the puppet off my hand, i am still here. And even if i keep the puppet on my hand but let's say you call me via skype, and when i answer i speak to you without the puppet, well you are still speaking to the same essential beingness as you would be through the puppet. You see? I have not gone anywhere, it is simply that from your standpoint i no longer am the puppet. From your standpoint. Our standpoint is a broader standpoint, though even here we focus our character such that she does not see all that we truly see. But from our broader standpoint, we are aware of all possible vantage points from which we can be perceived. Each vantage point is an interface through which we can be utilized and interacted with. We are aware of all our hands with all our puppets as well as every naked interface, simultaneously. So what to you in a linear sense is experienced as someone going away, we experience merely as where something else begins. Imagine if geography was experienced linearly, once you go from one place to another, you can't go back. So you are about to cross the line between California and enter Oregon but instead you experience it as the death of California. Imagine if people perceived the world that way. But then there is someone with a broader view, who can see the whole planet and therefore knows Oregon and California exist simultaneously. This is our view. So there is no death for us. But whether we are looking at a character in this story or the state of California, the definition or boundary lines of each is finite. And each is a portal to and brought to life by, the Infinite. OK, there is more to say about these 1095 days, but i will continue that in another post as i feel now it is perfect timing to end this one. Where this post ends, another begins...
