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As someone who thinks they ahe undiagnosed OCD, the idea of your thoughts creating only strengthens my intrusive thoughts and then I get into extremely harmful compulsions. Do you have any tips?

Ty

Hooo boy, I've highkey been avoiding this ask since I got it bc it's been so long since I've figured out how to work with my OCD that I kinda forgot what I do 😭 but I'm gonna try my hardest to explain my daily thought process!! And don't worry about repeating questions or anything like that! I'll answer the same questions as many times as ppl need me to, especially if it's OCD related. :) I also can't completely guarantee that I'll be the best at explaining everything in this post, so PLEASE ask if you have any follow up questions! I'll probably do better with some sort of guidance lmao

I want to start this post off with a disclaimer that in no way am I trying to gain brownie points or paint myself as some sort of "OCD-experience connoisseur" by talking about this. I'm not trying to say that my individual experience has been particularly horrible or worse than others'. I'd actually even go so far as to say that I've always luckily been at the bottom of the spectrum of harmful symptoms, so in no way am I trying to make myself seem like some sort of crazy victim. I'm simply trying to relate my personal experiences to other ppl with the same condition as me to hopefully help somebody. In my personal experience, it took me a while to even accept that I had OCD (ironically, one of my most intense repeating intrusive thoughts was that I was pretending to have OCD for attention lmao. Even though I wasn't even talking to anyone about it.). I think this ultimately led me to assuming that my experience has been more "mild" compared to others, which has made me disconnect from even having OCD in a lot of cases. By the time I realized I actually DO have this disorder, I had already convinced myself that there's no way it could control my life. In my opinion, this has made my experience easier than others I've seen with the same disorder. All this to say, if it seems like I'm acting like dealing with this is "a piece of cake," I GENUINELY do not mean to. I hope my language and explanations can be as serious as they should be and that I do not accidentally make light of smth that is an extreme struggle for ppl (including myself) every day. Please do not think that I think it is easy to deal with this. Please do not think that I think I am "better" at this than others simply bc I've been fortunate enough to have an easier time dealing with this than others. I understand how blessed of a position I am in and all I hope for is to help others to the best of my ability. Thank you.

***I also want to remind you before I start that this is MY way of thinking & the most important thing about manifesting is doing things the way YOU want to!!! If anything I say here disagrees with you, I firmly believe that means you're not meant to do it that way! Please use your own judgement to decide what you WANT to do, and don't force yourself to copy a random stranger on the internet no matter how much you trust their advice!! 🫶🫶

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Okay now we can get to the good stuff! I honestly had no clue where to start this post, so ig we can start with the thing that affects me most: intrusive thoughts & getting caught up in language usage. When I started in the loass community, it was HORRIBLE. When you're an OCDer and the first thing this community tells you is, "Your thoughts create your reality!" Your brain has an absolute fucking FIELD DAY with that!!!! Intrusive thoughts start fucking whirring like a chainsaw like it's actually crazy omfg. I would get so triggered & confused by everyone saying every opinion as if it was 100% fact and that ultimately made me get caught up in the language being used (which my brain would latch onto to create intrusive thoughts out of), but the thing I realized you need to understand going into it is that we as humans have limited language to describe things that are happening that are not physical at all. It's kind of like how certain languages have words for things that English doesn't have?? Like I remember when I was younger I once saw somewhere that apparently there's a Japanese word for when sunlight shines through the leaves of a tree. In English we have no word for that! At least not one that's commonly used, otherwise I'd probably know it! So I like to think about spiritual things in this way, too.

The spiritual realm has a language of it's own, and not all of those concepts can be easily translated into human understanding. Humans have a limited capacity for certain concepts. Think about the size of an apple. Now think about the size of a car. Now think about the size of the planet. Now think about the size of the sun. You see how it gets harder to fully grasp the larger the object is? Bc our brains aren't built to handle such large concepts! And that's okay! But this means that things that our spirits can understand, might not be as easily understood by our physical human brains. So a lot of ppl have to dumb down the concepts to fit into our limited human languages!

(This is why I always say it's important to take any form of language off the pedestal when it comes to manifestation. The words you use do not matter, bc language is limited. You can only express so much. Your brain will understand the concept that you're getting at regardless of the words that you use. Don't believe me? Here's an example: Imagine you're asking a friend to grab an object from across the room. You could say, "Hey, can you grab my headphones for me?" OR you could point and say, "Hey, can you hand that to me?" Either way, your message will get across! Your friend will understand what object you're talking about, even if you don't name it. Bc you're both using context clues (you point, your friend looks at the objects in the area you're pointing at & uses their reason to figure out which object makes the most sense for you to be asking for) to understand what you mean. Your brain = your friend.)

All this to say, when ppl say, "Your thoughts create your reality," they don't mean EVERY single thought. It's specifically the thoughts that you choose to have faith in day after day that manifest. Try not to get too caught up in the exact words that ppl use, bc like I said—they only have so many words to use to describe such large concepts. A lot of our language is built to be black-and-white, this way or that way. But these concepts go beyond those limitations, so if a sentence is structured in a certain way that triggers you, try to remind yourself that it's not that cut-throat and there's HELLA wiggle room when it comes to manifestation/shifting. Also keep in mind that there are know-it-alls in every community, and just bc someone is acting like their word/opinion is God, doesn't mean it actually is. I try not to dwell too much on the cockier accounts, and just focus on my own beliefs. :]

I also mentioned this in another post, but you will know when you're choosing a thought vs when a thought is simply passing through your mind. I struggled a lot with intrusive thoughts popping up in my mind & then being followed with ANOTHER intrusive thought of, "That's gonna manifest now regardless of if you want it to bc you thought it." But that's not how manifestation works at all!!! If that was how it worked, the world would be absolute chaos rn. If EVERY thought manifested??? Imagine thinking about seeing a live unicorn and then one pops up in your bedroom right in front of your eyes just bc you thought it. That's the type of world those intrusive thoughts are trying to say we live in 💀 Obviously that's not what it's about. We have millions of thoughts a day, but it's specifically the ones you CHOOSE day after day that manifest. YOU WILL KNOW when you have chosen smth. You can fucking feel it in your body. If it's triggering you?? Intrusive thought. When you CHOOSE a thought, you are thinking those words on purpose (idk what it's like to not have an inner monologue, but it's the same sentiment). Like... What's your favorite color? Did that word just pop up in your head against your will? Or did you purposely choose to say the color's name? Hopefully you can understand what I'm getting at!!

This is partially why I get so mad when ppl say affirmations & thoughts are the same thing. Bc YES technically you're right, but we ALL know we're talking about completely different things when we use each individual word. We mean different concepts when we say, "affirmations" vs "thoughts". That's why I just say, "The goal is to make your affirmations your thoughts," not that your thoughts are affirmations from the start. Again, limited words to describe these giant concepts.

You also have to GET RID OF the idea that your brain or your reality or the universe or literally whatever is against you or "your enemy." DROP THAT SHIT. That is SABOTAGE for manifestors with OCD. NOTHING IS TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOU!!! Your intrusive thoughts are not proof that your brain wants you to feel bad & fail!!! Your brain is an organ, a machine even, doing it's job! It does not have an opinion! Intrusive thoughts are a side effect of your organ having a condition! That's all it is! A physiological phenomenon in your brain! It's just chemicals, okay! It's not some higher power that wants YOU specifically to fail! I'm going to say this loud & clear: DO 👏 NOT 👏 LET 👏 ANY 👏 RANDOM 👏 POSTS 👏 TRIGGER 👏 YOU 👏 INTO 👏 PSYCHOSIS 👏

This was a big issue for me! I would see smth that was like, "If xyz, you're doing it wrong! :(" and my brain would go "yeah & the universe hates you for this grave mistake & is punishing you immediately for ever thinking you could possibly deserve to feel a shred of happiness or safety in your life mwahahahha 😈"

THE BIGGEST PIECE OF ADVICE I CAN GIVE TO YOU IS TO IMMEDIATELY SAY "that's incorrect." if you see a post telling you it's possible for you to be "manifesting wrong." IT IS NOT POSSIBLE. The reason there are a million methods & practices & success stories in each community is bc EVERYTHING WORKS!!!! If someone is claiming that you could be doing smth wrong, THEY DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT!!!! Please ignore them! :(( You deserve more than to let random losers on the internet control you like that.

Another thing that helps is to just accept that you're gonna have intrusive thoughts. It's just gonna happen, I'm sorry. You can't stop it. You can't even fight it a lot of the time, and that's okay. (You can always fix this later, but as a beginner just starting out this is a good mindset that helped me). Before you open any apps to look at manifesting/shifting content, brace yourself without judgement for them to pop up. Bc they're going to. That's normal. Our brains are wired that way. There's nothing wrong with that. You're not disgusting & you're not less powerful bc of it.

Like I said earlier, it is simply a physical, chemical phenomenon in your brain. It says absolutely nothing about you as a person. Accept the uncomfortable feelings. Get comfortable feeling uncomfortable. Get used to not fighting it. If it's scary & feels counterproductive at first, that's fine. I'd even say that means it's working. The more used to discomfort you get, the weaker that feeling will get with practice. And if you don't feel scared? If it feels like it's natural to do? Even better! No need to deal with those uncomfortable feelings if you don't have to!

One of my favorite mantras to say in regards to A LOT of things is: "It doesn't HAVE to happen, but if it DOES—it's helping." I think the reason I've gotten so impartial to my OCD symptoms recently is bc I just don't pay them any mind when they pop up. Oh, I'm triggered by that? Yeah, I saw it coming a mile away. It doesn't mean shit, that's simply how my brain works—it can't help it! The machine does what the machine is wired to do, no use getting upset at it for that. I've now gotten so used to my symptoms that I think it's almost as if they're not even there anymore.

When it comes to compulsions, I'm sad to say that I don't have much to tell you. I've just recently started noticing when I'm experiencing compulsions, and I'm still getting used to recognizing it. I've always experienced more "non-physical" compulsions?? Like instead of flicking the lights on and off for a certain number of times, a big thing for me is that I'll have a "time limit" to complete a certain task or smth like that. I've also recently found out that "body checking" is a thing?? Bro I do that all the time!!! 😭😭 I never knew it was a compulsion!! I legitimately believed for a long time that I didn't get compulsions as often as others simply bc the ones I get aren't like the stereotypical examples lmaooo. So yeah, I can't offer much advice here :( but I WILL say, I've noticed that as my OCD has become more tame (with me getting comfortable with my symptoms & etc), my anxiety has also gone down TREMENDOUSLY. I think this probably helps with compulsions. And anytime I experience anything debilitating/incredibly stressful bc of my OCD (like if I feel aroused after a sexual intrusive thought) I just remind myself that it's simply a chemical thing & it says nothing about who I am. I just remind myself that I know my morals & I know what & who I'm sexually attracted to & the body experiences many different sensations for many different reasons, not bc the intrusive thought is right. I remind myself once and then I move on, if I have to distract myself with smth else to be able to ignore any persisting intrusive thoughts? I do that. I try not to give too much attention to the intrusive thoughts bc I've heard that can make them worse. Maybe in a few months I'll be able to elaborate more on this subject, but for now I think this is all I can give you lol. :')

Overall I basically just try not to fight it. I consume manifesting & shifting content through a different lens than a non-OCDer would. I go into it knowing that they're going to word things in a way that my brain isn't necessarily built for bc they don't have my disorder. Neurodivergent ppl have to live through a neurotypical world every day! So I kinda just approach it through that lens. "These posts were not made with ppl like me in mind, but that doesn't mean I can't still read & interpret them how I like or need to."

It's gotten to the point also where if I see smth that starts to look like smth I'm gonna disagree with, I'll just skip it immediately lmao. No use triggering myself when there's plenty more content to go through. If I ever see a post that starts with, "Here's the key to manifesting!" Or "This is why you haven't shifted yet:" I just immediately go "nope" and scroll past. I know that I don't agree with that information, so what's the point in reading it when I know all it'll do is potentially trigger more intrusive thoughts? Protect your peace!

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There's no need to stress yourself out about something that doesn't matter. Would the future version of you who has it care about whether you got it instantly or had to wait a bit? Most likely not. They'd probably just be out enjoying their manifestation. Just stop worrying about it. Ask yourself if you even cared about making manifestation instant before you got to this community and saw everyone obsessing over it. If the answer is no, then you know you only care about it because other people forced the idea into your head. Don't stress yourself out because of them. All forms of manifestation are valid and cool and possible. No matter how much time they take.

When we say "manifestation is instant" what we REALLY mean is "the moment you have the desire, the pieces have already started falling into place for you to encounter your desire in the future." No one ever likes to phrase it that way out of fear that it'll somehow "slow their manifestations down", but I promise you nothing can stop you from receiving what you were always meant to have.

Whenever I heard people say "manifestation is instant!" I always imagined their desires materializing right in front of their eyes the moment the idea popped into their head, but that's probably not what most people mean lmao. All this to say, if you were thinking about it like me don't worry anymore. Don't put weight on making sure your manifestations are instant. Just focus on making them happen. Period. It doesn't matter how or why or when. As long as you know you're getting what you want, don't stress yourself out worrying about the specifics.

It can be scary to let go of time. We automatically assume that if we're not keeping track of time it'll take way longer and feel like forever before it actually happens. BUT YOU NEED TO LET THE POT BOIL. Staring at it is not going to make the stove heat faster. Just chillax. Have some faith. And don't let any idiots on the internet make you feel stupid for not concerning yourself with time. There are wayyyyy too many people in this community, specifically on Twitter, that say things like "why wouldn't you do instant manifestations? It's stupid not to." Or "You're clearly just not capable/doing things right if your manifestations take more than a week." IGNORE THEM. Those people are so obsessed with time that I can assure you they're probably the most insecure and stressed out manifestors behind closed doors because they don't know how to relax. Not to mention, why would you ever idolize anyone who insults people they don't know in their free time?? I know I sure as hell don't care about the opinions of people whose morals clearly don't match mine.

Just stop worrying so much! It can feel scary to not think about your manifestations because we get worried that if we don't watch over them, they'll somehow grow a mind of their own and decide to walk away never to return lmao. But you gotta let the stove heat up before you can start cooking. Let the water sit in the pot. Give it time. There's absolutely nothing wrong with waiting. We live in an impatient generation. But you don't have to be limited by what everyone else is doing. Do your own thing. Don't be the person staring at the pot of un-boiled water tapping their foot in impatience. Go read a book or sit outside or spend time with your family or watch your favorite show until you hear it boil over. The time will pass so quickly you'll wonder if water always boiled that fast.

So you are in luck bc this is smth that I am very used to! :)) I've experienced this practically every day since I've started my new method lol

In my opinion, it is very useful to not be afraid of fear. Fear is a human emotion. It's built into us to help us survive. Fear is nothing to be ashamed about. The good thing about manifesting is that just like intrusive thoughts, emotions have absolutely nothing to do with it! So you are SAFE to experience every emotion that flows through your mind/body. That's the beauty of manifestation. You can be entirely yourself & regardless of who you are you absolutely 100% deserve your manifestations & are capable enough to get them (bc manifestation & laws of the universe are not beings, therefore they cannot & do not judge). I think it's okay to affirm through ANY & ALL emotions, no judgement.

When you feel afraid, that's a natural part of life. I personally like to say that fear is an opportunity to be brave. Instead of seeing fear as a potential setback or smth you have to run away from, see it as a part of your body. Just like your limbs, it's built into how your body functions. It is not purposely working against you. It is solely a survival tactic for the brain. Your brain tells you when smth is risky (new things will always be in this category... I will explain why in a moment), creating the feeling of fear. This is bc in prehistoric times there were risks around every corner. We had to be wary of EVERYTHING bc every moment could be the difference between life and death. We're safe now, though! There are no predators we have to watch our backs for and instead of worrying about finding a new cave every night, the average person has a consistent place to go back to. All this to say, fear is not that serious. You don't have to let it control you. You don't have to be afraid of feeling scared either, though. It's not some divine subliminal messaging warning you that you're making a mistake—it is simply your brain sending signals to your body when it's not used to smth bc it can't accurately anticipate the outcome of new things. Our brains love data! Our brains use data from our past experiences to anticipate & prepare for future events to determine what the best approach is for our survival. Therefore, when you have no data on a specific thing: you get fear (hence why new things are always in the ⚠️ DANGER ⚠️ category of our brains lol). It's simply your brain trying to look out for you lol.

More specifically, when I'm affirming and I feel afraid, I see that as THE MOST IMPORTANT time for me to KEEP affirming! Being strong in our weakest moments is what makes all the difference. Who cares if you're strong when you're feeling good? That's just a normal day. Anyone can do that. But when you choose to be strong when you feel like you can't do it? When you stand up & fight even though you're weak & struggling? It proves to yourself that you can. And THAT leaves an amazing impression on yourself! It teaches your brain that, "We can trust what I say, even if it's scary." Think about all the iconic movies! Would it matter so much to us if the hero beat the Big Bad Guy on a normal Tuesday? Or does it mean more that the hero chooses to keep fighting even when they're bloody & hurt and it all looks hopeless?

So when I'm affirming & I start feeling scared or doubtful, I double down. I affirm faster & harsher (& almost kinda like an insane person...) to make sure any thoughts that I don't want can't get through & distract me. If I start feeling stressed out (like sometimes I get PHYSICALLY uncomfortable while affirming through doubts lol), I distract myself. I say, "Okay, I'm done! I know everything is fine & this is just my body & brain doing chemical weird stuff!!" and then I find smth to do. Watch a movie, do smth creative, hang out with people I love, etc etc. Be brave! I think bravery & strength goes hand in hand with fear. You can't have any of them without the other. :)

This does NOT mean I'm not going to talk about shifting anymore though! It will always be a major part of my belief system even if I'm not doing it myself. I just want ppl to be aware that I am not actively trying to shift and it is no longer going to be my main focus for a while. I want to repeat: I STILL BELIEVE WHOLEHEARTEDLY IN SHIFTING. I STILL LOVE SHIFTING. I WILL STILL REPOST/POTENTIALLY MAKE POSTS ABOUT SHIFTING. My belief system/opinion has not changed at all.

like you have the tools to talk to higher beings who are more educated than us especially on topics such as these since they help guide us in our lifetimes and help us grow as beings. they know more than we do and it’s important to not be ignorant and disrespectful.

so maybe instead of thinking what I said is funny you could actually take the time to be nice and also help educate yourself more instead of putting yourself in a box of un education. bc at the end of the day you’re only hurting yourself and your journey.

HELP MEEEEE I'M FUCKING CRYING THIS IS SO FUNNY 💀💀💀💀💀

But since you wanna do this, I'll play along!

Let's start by clarifying the things you assumed about me in your first ask:

1. That I believe in spirit guides.

2. That I would let anyone other than me decide what I should believe in.

3. That I need some sort of guidance & that I haven't grown enough??

Now let's debunk these things!

First of all, I'm not really big on spirit guides. Idk if you're an old follower or you've seen my old posts but not my new ones or whatever, but I do admit I used to be BIG on spirit guides. Nowadays though, I'm not entirely sure I believe in them the same way. I don't rely on anyone but myself, bc I firmly know that I am the sole creator & operant power of my reality. This is what I believe in. I do not need some stranger to come in and tell me that I'm wrong about this bc your opinion means absolutely nothing to me. I don't know you. You have nothing to do with my life. Nothing about your asks will change anything about how I live or think.

Anyways, all this to say, I don't care about spirit guides! I care more about the fact that I am everything & therefore any spirit guides I might have are also me. I usually default to talking to "the universe" as a whole, but through the mindset of the universe also being me, so I'm basically just talking to myself regardless of what I do. So even if I DID ask my "spirit guides" a question... they would literally just give me the same answer I'd give myself bc they ARE me, too. Not to mention, I'm smart enough to answer my own damn questions!! I LIKE what I believe in! I don't feel the need to change myself just bc some rando on the internet disagrees with me! There are hella people out there who disagree with me. What on God's green Earth makes you think you're someone special to me?? I don't care what you think. I don't care if you want me to "consult my spirit guides." Guess what! I'm not going to, bc I don't believe in them in the first place!

Second of all, I already pretty much covered this, but I am the only one who gets to decide what I think. Idk if you're new here or smth?? But I believe that we are all the creators/controllers of our own realities. I believe in the concept of "I am God." Therefore I believe there is no one out there more powerful than me. There's no beings out there that know more than I do, bc I create the very fabric of my reality. Down to every detail. Down to the morals. And as a shifter... you should know that infinite realities means infinite moral concepts. There are infinite realities where race-changing is a crime as equal to murder & rape. There are also infinite realities where race-changing is common practice & even EXPECTED of everyone. So... which is it? Is it good or bad? Wrong or right? How do we know which one is the truth? Well, the TRUTH is that there is no truth. No one reality is "more true" than another. Everything is equal. Imo, this makes almost any moral dilemma null and void. If it's right in some places, and wrong in others, then does it even matter in the first place?? I think everything is naturally neutral. I refuse to guilt trip or shame myself for something that is so miniscule in the grand scheme of existence itself.

Now, you could argue that bc we live in THIS reality, we should conform to this reality's moral compass. I would agree on certain things, I don't think you should go out assaulting ppl just bc it's normal in some other realities, but in terms of race-changing, there is sooo much discourse. There is not one single opinion that everyone, or the majority, agrees on. There is no singular accepted truth here. The truth here when it comes to the question, "Is race-changing wrong?" is actually: "decide for yourself," regardless of whether you like it or not. So even if you wanted me to conform to the standards of this reality, there is no standard for this topic at this current moment. So I'm gonna continue to believe what I wanna believe.

Third of all, you make it sound like I'm still on the beginning of my journey & I'm some ignorant kid who hasn't learned enough?? Bitch. I've been on this journey since I was ELEVEN. DO NOT imply that I haven't been through enough. You have absolutely no clue how many nights I cried and shamed myself over thinking I was wrong in what my mind & body gravitated towards believing. I used to think that race-changing was wrong too, but I never understood why. But I could consistently come up with reasons why it's NOT wrong. Maybe in this reality, certain ppl are meant to believe certain things & that's why I naturally gravitated towards that even when I was trying not to. I don't see why that's a problem?? I think a lot of people get race-changing reality shifters mixed up with people in this reality who claim to be "trans-racial," which is not and NEVER will be a real thing. Any normal race-changers do not go around parading like they are the same race here as they are in their dr(s), BC THAT'S FREAKING STUPID!!! Just like you've always been & always will be the race that you were born as here, it's the exact same in your dr!!! If you were born black, you have always been black. You will continue to be black until the day that you die. That's just how it works. But if you shift to a reality where you're Asian, it changes. In that reality, you have always been Asian. You will continue to be Asian. But it stays in THAT reality. Just bc you're black in your cr/or, doesn't mean you can claim to be black in your dr!! Bc in your dr, you're Asian!! It's the same the other way around! Anyone who acts like they're their dr race in their cr IS A WEIRDO!!! That's not what race-changing is!

Now, if you wanna argue about how fetishization is a whole other problem on its own, I won't argue with you. Fetishization is gross and weird, point blank period. But I've already stated on this account that I don't give a shit for WHY ppl shift or make decisions in their scripts, I don't see it as any of my business. Now, taking that shit onto the internet is a different story... if someone is fetishizing on the internet (or irl), by all means, bash them!! But if they're not doing any harm here, what's the problem? It's not like you can climb into ppl's heads to figure out their motivations for race-changing, so as long as they're being respectful I don't see the issue. Let me clarify one more time in case I got rambley and hard to understand there: someone being disrespectful & weird on the internet (or irl) absolutely 100% deserves to face the consequences for that, but if someone isn't causing any harm and is simply scripting that they're a different race & not doing anything else, literally WHAT is the issue??? Bc in that reality, that IS their culture!! They're not stealing, bc in that reality they were BORN that way. And why the hell would we bar ourselves from going to specific realities when they're gonna exist regardless?? If it exists regardless of if I go there or not and I WANNA go, I'm gonna go!! Why should I not?? It's not like that reality is gonna cease to exist if I don't. And it's not like it's gonna explode the space-time continuum if I DO go just bc I've already experienced being white in ONE reality.

Also... all this talk of "putting myself in a box" but YOU'RE the one keeping yourself from limitless exploration just bc one part of your identity is different in certain realities 💀 not to mention YOU'RE the one seeking answers from beings outside yourself. You can't just think you're right without confirmation from some invisible entities you've probably never seen?? Sounds pretty limiting to me. Thank God I escaped that mindset lmaoooo I'm MUCH happier now only seeking validation from myself. I choose what to believe in MY reality, and you can't stop me. :P I don't shame myself for my beliefs or practices. I don't subscribe to that fear-mongering mindset of needing to consult someone "higher" than me to know if I'm right. If I want to do smth, it's cause I'm meant to. If I have the ability & drive to do smth, I think it's cause it's supposed to happen! There's also no one "higher" than me or "more educated" than me lmaoooo bc I'm literally God. I am all there is. Who else could I possibly ask when it's all me???

If this topic is so important to you, why don't you send an ask with anon turned off? Cause rn it's giving coward. If it really meant that much to you, wouldn't you be willing to openly defend your point?? Not sure what trying to tell me what to believe on anon will do 💀 not to mention, one of the things I have written in my intro post about what I don't tolerate is ppl telling me what to think or believe. Strike 1, 2, & 3 all at once, buddy!! 😬 Not looking too good for you...

OMGGG STOP CAUSE stuff like this (patronus, wand, etc) is hard for me to decide bc I'm always unsure if I'll be able to come up with the best idea so I usually just leave it for me to find out when I shift HOWEVER for my Potter Twins DR I actually decided my patronus!! I've said this before but my PTs DR is actually based heavily on a fanfiction I read when I was younger & in that fanfic "y/n's" (who my drself is inspired by) patronus is a dragon! She's known by the whole school as "Hogwarts' Little Dragon" WHICH MIGHT BE CRINGEY BUT I'M MAKING MY INNER CHILD HAPPY BY INDULGING IT SKSKKSJFKWKE

Fun fact that's actually where my username comes from as well!! I've been using this username since I read that fic YEEEAARRRSSS ago, it started as variations of "littledragon" and eventually transformed into "happylildragon" which I basically use everywhere, so we can all thank that cringey little self-insert fanfiction for the person I am today :') (pls don't look up my accs on other platforms omg I'll be so embarrassed 💔💔💔)

ANYWAYS SKFBSKDK Yes so my drself (Mary) is Hogwarts' Little Dragon & I thought it would be fun to keep specific callbacks to the fanfic (even though I've made soooo many changes by now), like her patronus matching her reputation, in my dr just for sentimental reasons! I do love the fact that patronuses and other details like wands and stuff heavily have to do with who you are as a person/soul BUT I also think it's fun to have it be a lighthearted reference to smth important to me & this dr's existence so :)) I'm open to it being smth different, but for now I'm saying that her/my patronus is a dragon!!

I know it took me a while to say one thing multiple times but I find taking a little trip down memory lane to be quite fun so I allowed myself to yap just this once 😎 if you're curious about MY patronus, the Pottermore quiz says that mine is a Buzzard!! I remember I took the quiz when I was younger & I think it was a golden retriever..? But times have changed!

1. NO SLURS OR BIGOTRY. I think we can all agree that this rule is a MUST for ALL shifting accounts, especially confessional accounts.

2. NO MENTIONING BLOGS BY NAME/DESCRIBING SPECIFIC BLOGS. This is where the toxicity & drama comes in. Ppl want to attack innocent blogs for no reason, ppl want to call out blogs who actually have problems but then that starts a giant debate that distracts us all from what we're actually here for (shifting!)

3. The main topics of confessions would be ACTUALLY confessing shit (embarrassing moments in your drs, things you've scripted that you regret or think is funny in hindsight, beliefs you used to have, etc) & having RESPECTFUL conversations about topics & beliefs. No disrespecting ppl who believe a certain thing. If you have a problem with the belief itself, then talk about that belief. But you don't need to be insulting anyone who believes in it. We can have meaningful discussions without starting wars. And there's no need to be like, "PpL shOuLdNt bE BiGoTs!!!!" Bc we all already know that & it would already be in my rules.