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Battery capacity: 200mAh Operation mode: touch+button type Wristband Material: Genuine Leather Strap Style: Classic Buckle Style Function: Step counting, heart rate monitoring, blood pressure measurement, social entertainment, Bluetooth calling, intelligent reminder, sleep monitoring Color: Black steel strip, Silver steel strip, Black skin, Orange peel, Black glue, White glue Communication type: non card insertable Waterproof

Battery capacity: 200mAh Operation mode: touch+button type Wristband Material: Genuine Leather Strap Style: Classic Buckle Style Function: Step counting, heart rate monitoring, blood pressure measurement, social entertainment, Bluetooth calling, intelligent reminder, sleep monitoring Color: Black steel strip, Silver steel strip, Black skin, Orange peel, Black glue, White glue Communication type: non card insertable Waterproof

Battery capacity: 200mAh Operation mode: touch+button type Wristband Material: Genuine Leather Strap Style: Classic Buckle Style Function: Step counting, heart rate monitoring, blood pressure measurement, social entertainment, Bluetooth calling, intelligent reminder, sleep monitoring Color: Black steel strip, Silver steel strip, Black skin, Orange peel, Black glue, White glue Communication type: non card insertable Waterproof

Battery capacity: 200mAh Operation mode: touch+button type Wristband Material: Genuine Leather Strap Style: Classic Buckle Style Function: Step counting, heart rate monitoring, blood pressure measurement, social entertainment, Bluetooth calling, intelligent reminder, sleep monitoring Color: Black steel strip, Silver steel strip, Black skin, Orange peel, Black glue, White glue Communication type: non card insertable Waterproof

11.09.22

Been questioning if I numb my feelings lately

I mostly think I’m fine in general

But at the same time

Some tiny thing can bring this endless sorrow over me

Flooding tears out my eyes

And as fast as it was triggered

It vanishes again

The feeling ain’t over

Won’t ever be

But I’m done feeling it

At least for now

And in just seconds I’m right back to feeling fine

Sometimes it makes me feel so broken

But it just shows me what made me what I am

Sometimes I question if I'll ever be done processing those feelings

Or if I'll just deal with them accompanying me throughout my life

Deal with them punching me in the throat from time to time

Often with absolutely no forewarning

Just out of the blue

Almost forgotten

Those feelings are rotten

And yes

The pain it hurts

But even worse

It brings me anger

Makes me rage

With no one deserving to be the receiver

Makes me a believer

That I myself just cause the pain

I'm at fault for my own feelings

And not their fault to make me feel

They didn't mean to drive me up the ceiling

Still doesn't change the fact they did

Those are feelings that I hid

Slow cooking under a lid

A cursed potion brewing sickness

Sticky with a slimy thickness

Makes me feel unclean

Breaks my mask open at the seam

Torn up pieces of my façade

Reveal what's left behind

Am I what's broken on the ground

or what emerged from down below

Lines are blurred between the two

I'm neither this, nor that