#09042022

生了宝宝之后就已经有开始和老公爱爱，老公想要我生多一个，最好是儿子毕竟弟弟和他不亲。可是老公不在的时候，七七又招架不住黑人邻居还和其他的邻居大叔也发生关系了。七七好久没有上来这里也是因为没时间，被邻居们操之外还有一些老顾客和我继父（妈妈的男友和她结婚了）。

It was part exercise /part exploration.

Because of the personal connection and just to enjoy sounds of nature I muted my podcast and got lost in thought.

Off the beaten path, outside of the phone company knowing, it would have been a place my body would not have been discovered for possibly up to a week.

That's where things sort of started feeling spooky and because I'm a soft little puppy I was like 'oh I bet there are ghosts here' which is probably absolutely not true at all, (*were they to exist) at least if there are there wouldn't be any connected to me despite the personal connection to this area.

So I wasn't dwelling on that thought, but then I noticed.... Something is off.

I turned around, nothing. I looked the other direction, nothing.

Bright sunny day absolutely cloudless sky, birds trees weeds abandoned structures grasshoppers.

I was on a paved path and as I continued I noticed.. just something that was different, again. As part of the exercise segment I'm essentially going back and forth.

I turned around, again. Nothing. Continued walking, there it was again. Is something?.. is there something following me?

I'm not the kind of person who believes in ghosts and goblins, but I do consider powers and forces that we cannot perceive. And although I won't go into a graveyard at night, I can easily walk at night throughout town with only the fear of actual human criminals. In fact historically I get more spooked in my own home THINKING about how scary a ghost WOULD be, more so than actually thinking they're there.. hard to explain.

I'm in a situation where the only way out of the area I am in is a direct line, which is where I was going anyway, so I keep walking.

There it is again. What the hell is that?! Am I actually hearing something? Whatever is going on it is not distressing the birds or as far as I can tell the grasshoppers / insects.

Am I going to be set upon by a phantom? Possessed by a spector? Wedgied by the invisible man?

I'm in sort of a funk, so if I'm going to be captured by fairies, fine so be it.

Confidently as I walk, I say out loud "okay fine let's do this" being a supporter of science I obviously hope there's some sort of spooky supernatural creature about to transport me for some adventure.

The feeling continues. I realize it is a noise.

I realize how close the noise is to me.

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My God damn wired earbuds have been dragging behind me.