I just seriously cried over Yamada Ryosuke for the first time, and I’m really unimpressed with myself because this shit is getting too real. >:c
I was looking at something that involved Yamada talking about his love life and how he’d like to get married and have his own kids one day, and how that’s a really touchy subject for an idol to talk about. And it basically came down to him saying that one day there’s probably going to be news about him dating someone or getting married, and that it’s okay for his fans to get a little bit jealous, but please don’t do anything extreme.
And I just...broke down because I’m so mad that he and every other idol has to worry about, and though it seems that it’s becoming less of a problem over time, I’m still frustrated that there’s so much controversy over idols being in relationships as if they’re not real people or anything.
Then there’s the added frustration of knowing that yeah, I am going to get a little bit jealous when this happens. I’m not going to be able to help it, and I’m going to be so mad at myself because what the hell, Sel. This is an idol. You don’t get that way about them. That’s not how you operate. But of course this overcooked yam fry has to be your exception to everything.
More than anything though, I just want him to be happy. (I sincerely wish that for all of the idols I’m a fan of, and even the ones I’m not a fan of.) He deserves that. But that kind of happiness isn’t something I can give him, so I can only hope that the person who is able to do that will be good to him.