#05.04.2014

--is what I don't tell Kas. I don't... I don't really remember if we talked about her. She was gone by the time I was close to Kas. Well, transferred would be the right term now that I know where she actually went. I felt... relieved seeing her here. I shouldn't be--it's better if she was in Lethe, not here. Definitely not here.

Alex was my neighbour. She was the kid I looked up to, almost like a big sister to me. In the beginning, I wasn't too keen on playing with a lot of kids but she showed me how fun it would be if there were more of us. It was when I began making friends that she just took off. My dad told me they moved into the city, but his expressions had a different story. And, I guess, this was it. The big secret.

Alex wasn't in the "Evaluation" process anymore. She said she was working here, helping with the heavy stuff because they promised she'd be home once the job was done. That was two years ago. And without saying anything, we both know how impossible that was, how dumb it was to believe them. But it's strange how hope fuels your motivation.

How it fuels the way you think.

I decided that once we get out from Evaluation, we wouldn't stay at the supposed town where we're going to be moved. Kas joked about living in a forest; my mind considered this seriously. If, somehow, we got in a misunderstanding with someone, our lives would be in danger. And, I got to admit, I found it scary to be living freely with the others who have abilities. The possibilities were endless. I still remember how smart I felt that day.

And so we spent the rest of our days talking together, the three of us, hoping to forget that we were stuck in an island, away from our families. The three of us were what's left of what we had. Three pairs of eyes constructed with hope to mask away the fear of what the future held for us; of the unsolved puzzle spread across the determinants of our fate; of the final picture that it held. 

I wanted to wake up. I wished this was nothing but a really long nightmare. I had to wake up.

I woke up. It was time to leave the facility.