#022616

Have you felt what I felt? It’s killing me. I don’t know how to deal with it anymore. I’m dying inside. There are wounds that never show on body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds. I’m busy saving everybody else when I can’t even save myself.

I’m tired, when will do I look good to their beautiful eyes, to their perfect eyes? Even though you’re doing great, there are still people who are unhappy of what you are doing. They will still pull you down. They will keep on banging things on you that aren’t true. They never care on what you felt as long as they are happy keeping you down. They will push through all those things just to ruin your life. They will never care until you die.

02.26.16

022516. It's a special non-working holiday but I decided to go to work since sayang rin naman yung kikitain ko for today kung nasa bahay lang ako at buong araw lang na nakahiga o manunuod tv. Walang traffic, hindi rush hour kaya nakarating ako agad sa office in just 30 mins.

The usual routine; calling applicants and answering numerous emails. Dahil wala naman kaming masyadong ginagawa, Ms. Che decided na maaga kaming mag-out. Kesa umuwi agad, pinuntahan ko muna yung pinsan ko para bisitahin ko sila ni Aria. Sobrang namiss ko na kasi sila.

Nung nakarating na ko sa kanila, sobrang natawa ako kung paano ako tinitigan nung makulit na pamangkin ko. T‌inatantsa pa niya kung sino ako. Nung nakilala na niya ako, tumakbo agad sa'kin sabay yakap ng mahigpit. Awww. Baby girl so cute!!! Naglaro lang kami, nagsoundtrip, nagbasa ng books kahit di pa siya marunong magbasa. Gustong-gusto niyang matuto at mag-aral talaga. Imagine, one year and 3 mos. pa lang siya pero sobrang eager matuto. Nung nag-6pm na, I decided to go home dahil gusto ko rin magpahinga.

022616. Such a busy day! I need to call all the applicants as possible for my weekly report. Buti na lang talaga at cooperative halos lahat ng tinawagan ko. Yung iba, by next week na lang ulit. We really enjoyed the activity during the break period in the afternoon. Such a productive day it is!

And! And! And! I'm so happy how OTWOL ended. Grabe, so much love for JaDine! Didn't expect for the both of them to become a such Phenomenal Loveteam today. Una ko silang nakita nung may book fair/Wattpad event dito sa Cebu, sa Ayala Center. Kumanta si James nun tapos si Nadine, sobrang bata pa niya. I was also able to watch all their movies except Beauty and the Bestie. Sobrang nakakaproud maging fan nila. Sepanx to the highest level!

022716. That feeling na sobra kang inaantok ka na hanggang umabot sa kung nasan banda yung office ninyo ay dun ka na rin nagising. Napuyat dahil sa OTWOL eh. May Zumba session rin sa office, sponsored by the health clinic na partner ng company namin. We really enjoyed the session and the instructor is so cute! Ang cute ng ngiti niya! Sobrang nakakahawa. Lakas pa ng trip niya eh. Pag nagshashake yung boobs, hihirit rin siya na parang may boobs rin siya. Pag magshashake ng hips pababa, titingnyan rin niya kami pababa. Haha!

Naabutan ko pa yung laro ng Adamson at UE. Wala eh. Sayang talaga yung height ng UE kung di nila gagamitin yun ng maayos. And here comes the most awaited game of the season, Ateneo vs La Salle! Ang sakit kasi natalo sila pero ganun talaga. May nananalo. May natatalo. Ang bitter forevs ni Mika Reyes. Adrenalin rush raw eh. Sige, pagbigyan. Haha!

Maaga akong inantok dahil sa pagod ng pagzuzumba namin. I asked my youngest brother for a massage. Sobrang sakit talaga ng legs ko eh. Ang kulit-kulit pa nung hinilot niya yung ulo ko. Haha!