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Setelah ditabrak oleh seorang pemotor, spion itu pun patah. Ya, patah. Terkulai. Rebah. Seperti puisi tersuruk sepi. Dan lelaki bermotor itu langsung pergi memacukan motornya. Meninggalkan spion itu seperti kehilangan masa depan dan berdarah. | #fotoMI #fotojalanan #spion #pemotor #ugalugalan #bsd #serpong #banten #indonesia #02092016

Chocolate flavour still my favorite. #newzealandnatural #tropicanacitymall #tgif #02092016 #night

I fell in love with someone so difficult to understand,He’s bipolar and assumes things way to quick and he’s very insecure and he thinks ahead of things.But see no one saw how beautiful he could be when he sleeps, and how caramel brown his curls look when the sun shines on him, or the freckles he has going on on his nose. His voice sounds like a melody when he’s tired. And his hugs, his hugs are everything. However there’s one thing that he does that breaks my heart.... he doesn’t feel the same way i feel about him. He says it’s because i haven't given him enough time, but I've waited 6 months. 6 long months of me constantly sharing my feelings with him writing notes to him making him feel good on a daily always trying to be there when he needs me. Trying my best to be the best girlfriend he ever had, but sadly i never met the standards the other females he “had”. I don’t have a smoking hot body, i don’t dress girly or classy, i don’t do my make up everyday, i don’t eat salads everyday and i definitely don’t work out. But before he even came in my life i was suffering from deep depression and anxiety. Being with him helped me a little, i no longer felt the need to stay in my room all day, i went back to school looked for jobs and tried to better myself. But somewhere in my gut i felt like he was doing stuff behind my back and not telling me. See i used to play the game every guy seems to play on a female and trust me i mastered at it, so when i felt like he was up to something i would quickly track him down to make sure he was keeping his word, but it gets tiring after a while making sure he wasn’t cheating. I gave up and started to notice how much he lacked on giving me the attention i needed. I felt like i was always second base to him and i really couldn’t take it anymore. A couple nights ago i called him to see if he was still coming over like we planned and he told me yes but that he had to drop his friends home so i waited for almost 2 hours and nothing i almost finished my pack of cigarettes waiting for him until i called one of my high school friends to come pick me up, and so he did. Long story short though, i ended up cheating with a girl. But before all of that happened i never had his attention on me. After all of this happened he wants to focus on me. I understand where he’s coming from but honestly he could of done it without me having to do stupid things. I do regret it i really do but he acts like if he was the one that cheated. He doesn’t want his space in fact he wants me with him at all times. He doesn’t understand how hurt i feel about everything that has happened. I don’t want to lose him as my lover or my best friend. I just want him to open up with me and tell me cute things the way i did with him because he has licked off all the icing on the cupcake now I’m just a plain cupcake i need to be re iced. lol i just hope he opens up his eyes and sees how in love i am with him. He’s the only guy i want on this planet he’s my other half. If i end up losing him i lose myself and i don’t want that. Our love story has just started and for it to end this way is not how i planned it. I planned on having our own house and car. Having our own little family and loving life as it is together. He’s my happiness and i hope he knows that.