#01.10.2022

Pretty boy Joel 🥰😍

01.10.2022

Woo double digits and a new week. I’m waking up tired everyday now it seems, which sucks seeing as to how one of my goals was to wake up with positive thoughts. That can’t very well happen while I’m complaining that I feel ill. Something’s gonna have to change around that…

Welp, I was able to pay for the spring semester, but I think my old school’s email account got deactivated so I have no way of knowing if the scheduled email I made to be sent out today will actually go through. I sure hope not. The other things I want to achieve this week are:

All of the things I didn’t do last week (7)

Watch “Pig”

Organize classes

Order class books

Post 6 month loc’d video

Listen to audiobook

Get stomach sorted out

Keep taking medicine

It’s a lot less than I had last time, but then again I didn’t finish 7 tasks from last week so it merges over. Y’all it’s so embarrassing not finishing the tasks I set out for myself. Although it was maybe a little too ambitious…

You know when someone says they play lacrosse and they look like they play lacrosse??? 😂 That will never not be funny to me.

You know when you follow a god or goddess and you ask for something and you’re GIVEN that goddamnthing that you thought was going to be such a hassle to get and your love and admiration for Them just increases by the barrel full??? (Thank you Universe Thank you Bastet I love you I love you I love you I love you)

I think this and many other little things have finally made me realizing that my time with Sekhmet might have come to an end. I really enjoyed working with Her -even with the tests- but recently my focus and admiration has really been placed on Bast alone. I’ll do a meditation tonight to see if it’s really the case, but I feel like it is. It’s been good though~

Okay my happy freak out is over lol. I’ve applied to the position they sent to me, but of course if the salary isn’t high enough I’ll decline. It’s just nice to know that someone is listening sometimes you know~? And that my skills and my LinkedIn still get me noticed~

Too many emails (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞ I don’t know how people can live like this. I keep a little picture of Kiki on the side of my computer to remind me to work hard but hot damn Kiki it’s difficult. It’s actually so sad because I was having a good time but then I got overwhelmed and I’m just stopped. And see, this is why I feel like taking my anxiety medication won’t do much because I took it yesterday and look at me. If I’m still the same why bother with it at all? I think that me saying “I don’t talk full one hour lunches anymore because I don’t wanna have to work until 6pm” says a lot about what I think of work.

Okay. I’ve eaten a buttered toast and I have some tea and I peer reviewed my sister’s story homework. So now I’m gonna put on something in the background and clean out my school emails. If I feel up to it, I might do a bit more work for work.

I want to be angry at myself for falling a bit at the end of work, but I got a lot of other stuff done! I cleaned out my personal and school inboxes, I requested my official transcripts for transfer, I paid for my SGA membership renewal, and I applied to two jobs, one of which was a government position so, yeah! I did good. I guess it helped that I was working along to a video of someone working lol

Trying to figure out my icky mornings and stomach situation by not eating anything after 9pm. I would be snacking all night long otherwise haha. Hope it works!