Yet again I lose not only a lover, but a best friend and one of the most important people in my life. Though instead of relief, this time all I feel is sad, weak and pathetic.

It feels like only a day ago you were close by my side and now, who knows if I'll ever get to talk to you again. My heart won't stop aching. And despite what everyone has said to me, I can't help but miss you so much. You've done so much for me and yet again, all I do is make your life harder. I am sorry I am the one that pushed you away, only to realise how much I regret it. I am sorry for all the things I put you through and all the sadness you had to burden because of me. I am sorry for everything.