I am very much unwell about that line in the book where Grace goes like "I hope I wasnβt close friends with either of them. Or, if I was, I hope I donβt remember it." when he sees the dead bodies of his crew. Like. What's that, doctor Grace. Are we trying to dodge the pain. Are we trying to prevent or at least delay the heartbreak. Are we trying to hide our head in the sand (until we can't do it anymore and life forces us to face the horror).
Him being so avoidant and scared of being hurt is so important to me personally, you have no idea.

















