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An Anon warned me about you and I..wanted to know why so..

B... Berdly?

Berdly!! I knew you were okay!!

We fell asleep in the library remember? People were saying you died or something!

Go to the archives of my blog anon and you can feel like you’re in 2017 again.

But in all seriousness, I find it really interesting just how much this fandom has changed in such a short amount of time. I’ve been in quite a few fandoms over the years and never have I seen such a dramatic shift in terms of general fandom opinions and dynamics. I also find it interesting just how much of a disconnect there is from the topics the show focuses on versus the topics the fandom focuses on, and I’m not jus talking about ships.

I do miss Jyrus though, and just that excitement in actually thinking it had a chance of happening. It feels weird thinking about how certain I was it would become canon, how certain I was Jonah would end up being bi. I still stand by the sentiment that it was a missed opportunity, but eventually you just kinda have to let go. That’s part of why I began to distance myself from Jyrus; there was just so much negativity surrounding it, with this general sense of doom and gloom. I’ve managed to have a lot of fun in the fandom, but never to the same extent I had when Jyrus was still a possibility in my mind. Ever since there’s always this sense of defeat and hostility in the background, like some soft droning noise that you only notice when you’re not distracted. I miss Jyrus, but really I just miss the care-free excitement I felt back before “Keep A Lid On It”. Though in all honesty, my disillusionment with the show and fandom had been building up long before that, and was more the breaking point rather than the sole event that lead to a down hill spiral.

None of this is to say things were perfect back when Jyrus was the main ship of the fandom, but for me, they were definitely simpler and happier times, where enjoying the show didn’t feel like as much work as it does nowadays. I guess I still have hope that one day I’ll be able to recapture that same excitement I used to have, but I doubt it.

RULES: Bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, and tag ten people!

AIR: I have small hands • I love the night sky • I watch small animals and birds when I pass them by • I drink herbal tea • I wake to see dawn • The smell of dust is comforting • I’m valued for being wise • I prefer books to music • I meditate • I find joy in learning new truths from the world around me.

FIRE: I don’t have straight hair • I like to wear ripped jeans and overalls • I play an organized sport • I love dogs • I am not afraid of adventure • I love to talk to strangers • I always try new food • I enjoy road trips • Summer is my favorite season • My radio spotify is always playing.

WATER: I wear bracelets on my wrists • I love the bustle of the city • I have more than one set of piercings • I read poetry • I love the sound of a thunderstorm • I want to travel the world • I go to sleep past midnight most days • I love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs • I rewatch kids shows out of nostalgia • I see emotions in colors not words.

EARTH: I wear glasses • I enjoy doing the laundry • I am a vegetarian or vegan • I have an excellent sense of time • My humor is very cheerful • I am a valued advisor to my friends • I believe in true love • I love the chill of mountain air • I’m always listening to music • I am highly trusted by the people in my life.

AETHER: I go without makeup in my daily life • I make my own artwork • I keep on track of my task and time • I always know true north • I see beauty in everything • I can always smell flowers  • I smile at everyone I pass by • I always fear history repeating itself • I have recovered from a mental disorder • I can love unconditionally