Didn't really notice the constant feeling of guilt / need to defend my actions until I read it was a symptom of c-ptsd and now it's bothering me because it really is constant.
Every little thing I have an excuse for just in case. I have to have things at work and at my house set up a specific way or I get panicky at the thought of someone being mad at me. I can't be out late or on my phone too much without feeling bad about it. I overthink every conversation I have. I get sick to my stomach if I even think someone didn't like something I did. I'm literally on edge 24/7 and feel the need to lie about the dumbest smallest things.
I don't really know where to start when it comes to working on that, but at least I'm aware of it now, so that's something.
