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apparently I show a lot of the signs of it? E.g. At work yesterday, I spent about five of the eight hours I worked going round straightening books, rearranging things so they’re “right” (multiple times through the day) and then I spent another hour fidgeting because something wasn’t in an even number. Another thing I do is the counting thing, everything has to be in fours, and if not, twos. Also, if one of my fingers accidentally (most of the time) touch something, my other fingers (Part 2-DJ)

on that hand only have to also touch that object etc. or I’ll start getting panicky and even more fidgety. I also have a thing about colouring (yeah, it helps calm me) in the lines and if it goes out of the lines, I get really, really angry and usually end up tearing the page out or something like that, and I’ll also end up re-writing things over and over until they’re right, like, my coursework this year, I must have written out over twenty times until I was happy with it because (Part 3-DJ)

even if it’s the smallest of mistakes, it bugs me, you know? Well, I’ve gone on a bit and I promise this is the last part to this thing. What do you think is the best thing to do about it all and also, do you think that’s enough stuff to go about? I mean, going to the GP etc. absolutely terrifies me, so yeah.. Any ideas would be appreciated. Thank you (Part 4/4-DJ)

Hi love,

What about going to a doctor scares you the most? Is it something specific or is it just in general? I honestly think seeing a doctor would be best, love. It sounds like this is seriously impacting your everyday life, which is when a doctor needs to intervene and figure out what’s going on. You may not notice how much these behaviors impact your life, but there’s probably something going on if other people have pointed it out. Your mood swings are also something that a doctor should know about before you end up hurting yourself or someone else when you become angry. Although it might sound terrifying, seeing a doctor or a therapist would be your best bet. If it meant getting these things under control, do you think you could convince yourself to get help?