#-depression

Ima be 100% honest and just admit that ive been dissociating for the past few weeks and i have no concept of time anymore. Probably for the best as I would have a mental breakdown if i felt everything at once?

Mainly its due to all of my main triggers being stomped on bc of this pandemic sooo its not exactly been smooth sailing? But I think the final nail in the head was my loss of senior year. Honestly it sucks bc u know ull hear how other peoples were in a year older or younger than you? Idk this year was going well for me and to have that thrown out? Like it sucks not having milestones u value urself bc of how hectic ur life is. You just want one thing. One thing. And it gets ripped away from you and you can never have it back. Its heartwrenching.

being single and alone and living with depression in your late 20s is the worst. not one day goes by that i don’t think about how old i am and how my time is running out. how i have no time to find somebody who will love me or have a family or have better career opportunities. how so many people who are ten/over ten years younger than me are far better at art than i am even though i’ve gotten degrees in art and had years of formal training. how i have so little time left to improve to be a better artist who can actually make worthwhile work, who can actually get hired.

sorry i feel like shit if anyone actually does read this but if you’re younger just understand that getting old is really hard.

I have had a problem with depression in the past and especially a few years ago, although everyones experience with depression is very different and what i used to cope may not help ur friend bud.

When I feel depressed I always remind myself to live one day at a time, like don't think about the future or the past, just think about the day you are living right now and take small steps.

I rewarded myself for doing small things like taking a shower, eating all of my meals in a day, getting dressed etc. this encouraged me to do this more often and eventually got me back into normal living patterns.

As their friend, a way you can help them is just generally being there for them and not asking too much of them. Encouraging them is good but trying to push them to do things they aren't ready for isn't going to help them and will may cause them to get into a bigger slump. Avoid saying things they have probably heard time and time again, along the lines of it gets better or this is just a phase. Although this may help them, ask them what you can do as their friend to help them, as I said, everyone is different.