#-vent

Dizzy. Ill. This was supposed to be my day for myself too. Blahhhhhhh.

Also out of instant coffee. So hopefully tea is enough additional caffeine.

I drank so much coffee this morning just to crash before my shift was over that was super intelligent.

Everytime I catch 1111 I think about how I freed myself from my specific 1111 magical thinking curse wishing for something that is unlikely to even happen but having to do it no matter what and I feel like I am teetering on the edge of doing it again just by remembering that.

I am so tired my body aches I feel slow and hazy idk. I guess lack of sleep hang over. My energy being drained from me for 8+ hours yet again hang over. Too much coffee hang over. Idk.

I seriously feel like I am dealing with an all day hang over and I didn't even drink.

I should go back to sleep. Crankiness is turned up to 11 apparently.