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in regards to my tags: #an elijah edit on tiktok just inspired great rage in me for elijah dying in the end of TO#i mean the edit itself was good#but it had the Scene#and listen i can explain why his ending is massive bullshit (and lazy writing) but until then i will scream 

so this is for anyone interested in reading why the fuck elijah should not have died in the end of the originals fgishdfguih coming from a writing perspective and also from an elijah fan. also dear god do not let this into the tags pleaSE FOR THE LOVE OF MY SANITY

basically it’s lazy writing. elijah’s character arc right from season one should have been realising that hey, he can live his life for himself too. and we were getting hints of that through seasons 2-3, and even in the start of season 4.

Meg,,,it’s like 2:25 AM (not when I post this tho) and like,,,I’ve been crying at the idea of MC have a nightmare right. It’s of if she did die in the Hera situation.

Okay my idea was like,,,imagine MC at the worst of her worsts, having this nightmare, and instead of people mourning her and missing her...they laugh. They laugh at her death. Aphrodite, Hades, Alex, May, Josh, and anyone else she held close to her. They just laughed and she would see it and it’d haunt her. And to make it worse, she could read their thoughts somehow. And instead of them thinking of her or mourning over HER,,,they’re mourning over Hera. And she loves Aphrodite and Hades and believed they loved her as herself. Not as Hera. And to see them miss Hera and not her,,,it hurt her everytime she saw that dream.

She would always wake up in a sweat and tears running down her face. Alex would wake up since they’re a light sleeper (and maybe they were already awake since they don’t need much sleep) and ask what’s wrong. MC, a little scared to say what’s wrong, just tells them she had a dream about her mom. Alex could tell she was lying, of course they could. They’ve known her since forever, but they didn’t want to push her. They would hug her, kiss her, and rub comforting circles on her back as she falls back asleep. She wouldn’t have that dream for a few more weeks...but it always comes back.

And when they both get married, finally, the dream comes back and it hurts so bad because now...she is a demigod. She technically has Hera actually inside of her now. And it makes her worried. It gives her anxiety at night. She doesn’t want to sleep because she hates the dream. She hates it. She hates doubting people she loves.

She hates it.

She hates it.

But it’s always there. Haunting her. She would see Aphrodite and Hades and would wonder...do they truly love her? Do they love her...or Hera? Do they see her as MC or do they only see Hera when they look at her? She loves them both and to doubt that they love her...it hurts and the thought haunts her. Especially since she sees Aphrodite a lot since now she is a daughter-in-law. However, she’d put on a smile and be friendly because she loved her...even if she didn’t know how Aphrodite feels...

And one night, she can’t take it anymore. It hurts and it’s made her stop sleeping and she just...needs to talk about it. She goes to Alex one night and is laying in their lap as she explains what’s wrong. She’s crying and can’t hold back her emotions.

“Everyone laughs at me. As if I meant nothing to no one. And instead of missing me...Aphrodite and Hades saw Hera. They didn’t see me. They didn’t love me. I just sensed it. And Alex,” MC would look them in the eye and her voice would tremble even more, “It hurts. And I’m starting to believe they maybe they don’t see me. Maybe they see Hera...maybe they don’t care, Alex. I know I shouldn’t feel like that. I love Aphrodite and Hades so much, Alex, but I don’t know how they feel and I’m scared Alex.”

She rambles on and on her feelings pouring out. Once she’s done, she rests her head against Alex’s collarbone and rests her hand on their golden heart, clutching it for comfort. Alex would run their hands through her hair and think for a few minutes. They weren’t thinking of words, they were thinking of memories. Memories of them as kids, but not them as kids. MC as a kid, and how she was treated by everyone.

“Ya know, I know why you doubt, MC. It sounds horrible, but did you know Aphrodite met you and was in awe?”

MC would sniffle and look up at them, wiping her eyes as she listens.

“What do you mean?”

“My mother loved your mother, but she didn’t love you because of your mom. She loved you because of you. She told me how pretty you were as a kid, how sweet you were, and how you were such a good kid. She was excited to see you, ya know? She loved seeing more people and wanted to make you feel safe when coming to Olympus. And it wasn’t Hera she saw, she saw you.”

MC would sniffle again and think about what they said.

“Yeah, but how do you know? She might’ve saw me but also saw Hera and only gave me comfort because she wanted Hera to feel safe.”

“MC. Ya know what my mom did when we started dating? She was so happy,” Alex would say as they move their hand to hold her cheek. “She talked about you to everyone who would listen. She also laughed at how your mom was right. We ended up together. She was so happy and didn’t even know how to put it into words. Especially because you were a little kid when she met, and now was suddenly a proud adult. She was in awe of you for everything you’ve done and not because you could’ve been Hera.”

MC would let out a few more tears, her anxiety getting to her. Were they right? Were they wrong? And then she remembered Hades.

“Yeah, but what about Hades? I know he’s not very talkative and is very quiet, but he loved Hera just as much as Aphrodite did. And I wonder did he also wish I died? Was there a little part inside of him that wished I died? Did they both want me to die deep down?”

When Alex heard that, that hit them a lot deeper. She shouldn’t feel like that, but they understand why. She was a mortal who was living her own life, serving the gods, helping everyone she could, and to suddenly see the gods she love turn against her...it would scar anyone. However, they didn’t know what to say this time. She truly had them at a loss for words. But they decided to go with their tactic from before.

“When Hades Met you he was also in awe. You were a little nervous around him, but out of every other god, other than my mother, you wanted to be with him. You always found his purple hair pretty cool and he always said he found your hair cooler.”

MC would let out a little laugh at that, a little embarrassed of her past actions.

“You didn’t understand that he was a god at the time, and I think Hades liked it like that. He liked the idea of having a friend that didn’t feel the need to be careful around him, one that showed their true colors without hiding everything out of fear. Plus, he liked having a friend that liked to hold his hand and listen to him tell stories and jokes. I believe he didn’t see Hera. He saw a little girl named MC and truly loved her for how she was.”

MC would open her mouth to ask another question, but Alex just continued.

“And someone’s always looking out for Hades. And it’s not just your mother from the underworld. It’s you. Well, kid you. You gave him a notebook. A purple, child like notebook. I remember you giving it to him with such happiness and that he could only go to the joke parts of the book. Mainly because the rest of the book was filled with questions. Questions about the future in around 10 years.”

MC sniffled bht felt a little amused at the stories.

“I once got curious and opened it when I was a kid. There was one part that I still remmeber. It went, ‘How are you doing now? Are you alright? You better be, Mr. H! I care about you and you deserve to be happy! And if you’re not okay, then that’s okay too! I know adults have hard times, and especially you since you have a lot of responsibilities! And I know I’m a kid and don’t understand everything, but as long as you try as hard as you can, as long as you never give up, and surround yourself with people you love and people who love you in return, then you can do anything you desire!’ And you would ask more questions about you too.”

“About me?”

“You would be like ‘Am I one of the best agents like you said I could be? Am I still in touch with you? Do you still enjoy my company? Are Alex and I finally together? Do you somehow know if they like me? Don’t tell them that I like them! It’s our little secret!’”

MC and Alex would laugh at the sweet and shy MC that existed all those years ago.

“And you gave one to my mother, too. But I haven’t been able to find it and have never seen it. I wonder what’s in it.”

MC shrugs as she tries hard to remember it, but truly can’t.

“Doesn’t matter if you remember or not. My point is, that they love you. My mother talks about you all the time, loved you since you were nothing but an infant, and Hades doesn’t talk a lot, but remember he was the one who wanted to make you a field agent. He was the one that was proud of you to promote you. And he always asks how you are doing when he checks up on me, too. He’s a little embarrassed to ask about you, but I know he cares and loves you too. I’m sorry that you ever have to doubt that, MC.”

MC would smile at them and wipe her eyes one final time. She would lean in and kiss them and then lay her forehead against their own.

“Thank you, Alex. I believe you. And I love you so much, and I’m glad they love me too.”

Alex smiles at MC and hugs her closer to their chest, proud to have made her feel better and feel so lucky to have her. And they both go to sleep that night and MC doesn’t feel as afraid as she used to to fall asleep. She goes to sleep with no dreams, which is a miracle to her. She’d rather have no dreams that the nightmare she was having. She truly felt blessed to have Alex in her life.

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