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Hey, amigo.

It's hard, isn't it?

I know. Sometimes, it's painful too.

Sometimes you really wanna give up, throw the books, hide in a corner and never take any action again.

I understand. I really do.

But I'm not here to collaborate on the pity party. I'm not going to join in on the groaning challenge, or complain about how hard it is.

First, get this though. It is hard. I won't lie. It is worth groaning upon. Maybe one or two pity parties are affordable too.

Yet, there's a pact we've make together, and I'd like to remind you of it, before we talk further. New here? We call it the Shush Pact.

Don't do it. Don't complain. Don't whine. Don't give in so easily. Don't.

Go ahead. Make the pact. Now.

Go on! Do it.

Tell yourself, today's hard. Tiring. But, I won't give in to this. Nor will I complain and moan about it, and waste my energy. Not today, Amelia! Today's not that day.

Done?

Sure?

Okay. Let's go.

If you're tired.

If you're tired, exhausted of the hustle, and almost at your breaking point, I want you to remember how MUCH this means to you.

I don't know what’s driving you nuts. Maybe it's a math problem you just can't crack. The presentation due next week that isn't up to the mark. Maybe it's 3 gigantic books you have to read up on before your next theology class. Perhaps your business has come at a standstill, and you can't get it to grow. Or maybe you hate your job, and have finally, bravely, taken the step to work the 6 hours after you come home on building the art portfolio of your dreams, because in your heart, you've always been an artist. Maybe you're juggling three jobs and working late nights to save enough money to catch the dream bus.

I don't know. But I do know that it means a lot to you.

I know how passionate you're about this, and how much it means to you.

And yet, you're tired.

You're tired of it!

You're tired of studying so much. You're tired of DMing every business in town, to have none reply back. You're tired of working so much, handling so much, and you feel like you haven't had a break since you were a kid. You're tired of the pressure, you're tired of the hustle and you just… wanna quit.

Don't.

Please.

It's hard to be positive in this dark, numb time and you're starting to work mechanically, questioning your existence with every hour, but I have to make you understand! You're worth this! You're so worthy of this, my love.

Please don't quit.

Don't give up. It's hard, but seal those lips, and trust your gut. I know you can make it. You've worked so hard for this! You've struggled so much, invested in so many weeks of work, and right now, at your breaking point, I want you to realise that you're worthy. Of getting that grade, that degree, finding a job you love, your crazy ambitions of opening a flower shop… everything! All of it!

You deserve the world.

Listen to me. Open your ear and listen: you're tired, yes. But here's the truth. You're not done yet.

You've got so much to prove to yourself. So many identities to identify yourself with. Exams to slay, jobs to get, money to make, dreams to build, people to meet and love to spread.

Listen. There's more to this. There's more to YOU.

Don't give up now.

Not today.

You're not done yet.

Tiredness will pass, and I want you to just try pushing through this. Just try. You'll see you're so capable of winning and it'll blow your mind when you look back and realise the strength you truly possessed because you were able to push through.

Winning is your blood. It's your oxygen.

Tiredness is a toxic. A poison. You're not tired, you just think you are. When the human brain says it's done, it's actually got 70% more to give.

Don't forget. Your legacy awaits. If this truly means everything to you, if you've already put in hundreds of hours of work into this, PUSH THROUGH! You've got to, because your future self deserves a better life! Don't let them tell you that you need a break. A Hawaii vacation. They'll say you're getting nowhere and urge you to take a break.

You and me, we both know you don't need one. You just needed a reminder of your capabilities.

And I've given you that now.

Just remember, you're not done yet.

So fuck tiredness.

self care can truly just be about the little things too, if you can see it that way. It is getting a good night's sleep after a couple of sleepless ones. It is watching the rain pour down while you drink your cocoa. It is watching the sunsets with a loved one. It is trying out a new hairstyle or picking a cute outfit when you've been dressing like trash the last week. It is picking flowers to put in your hair or reminding yourself that you're a gorgeous badass person capable of everything.

self care isn't self care if you've to force yourself to do it. self care should feel normal, not forced. It should leave you rejuvenated not drained. remember, self care is just about YOU.

Here's what you need to do though: Keep. Going. For. It. It's uncomfortable, I know, but don't hesitate. Plunge yourself into the situation so that you can't back down anymore. Because even if you don't succeed, you'll learn. Yeah, you'll fall, but I know you have enough strength to get back up again and start kicking. So don't hold back. NEVER hold back. I promise you won't regret going for it. Trust me.

So go do crazy shit that you've always wanted to do. Travel wildly. Love fully. Go bananas in public. Nobody really cares. But that little heart of yours? It'll gain the confidence that is needed to make your dreams become a reality one day.