#*blue magic

Limit Break; Sorry for the lack of updates, but I will be back soon. I’ve just been sucked into FF7Remake like most everyone else, I suppose. That being said, I AM making FF7R muses because I can’t not. I’ve fallen in love. There will be a blog up soon for the characters.  In addition, I am working on a FF7 crossover verse for Quistis because I also can’t not. She would fit in very well, I think. Stay tuned for those!

Limit Break; Hi, my Quistis has complicated romantic/sexual feelings for @decayinghonour and there’s nothing you can do about it. :) She also has complicated romantic/sexual feelings for @misplacedheroics and @roughdiivide and not-so-complicated romantic/sexual feelings for @hartofbalamb and @corditeheart She also has crushes on/is crushed on by @yunhuntress and a few others. If you are interested in a full ship with me, let me know. I have the right to refuse if I feel our characters won’t mesh well. I love discussing dynamics of our muses behind the scenes and plotting things out for the future.  ALSO NOT ALL SHIPS WILL BE HAPPY, MUNDANE SHIPS. Yes, Quistis deserves to be happy, but I can guarantee you her personality won’t allow for it. She unfortunately is attracted to those who will likely hurt her in some way (whether it be personality or related to their area of work). She is not a civilian. She is a mercenary. Things will be complicated. They will not be easy. They will probably be a bit toxic. That is INTERESTING. I get easily bored with the happily-ever-after type ships. There has to be a bit of a push-and-pull to make it worth writing for me. That being said, certainly things can end up happy, but I’m not here for nothing but domestic shit.  Also, I ship for myself and my writing partner and NO ONE ELSE. If you don’t like a ship I partake in? Guess what!! IT’S NOT FOR YOU. It’s for US to have FUN. I’m almost fucking 30 gottdang years old and I am tired of the nitpicky shipping wars. It ain’t that deep.

Limit Break; Hi! Another update! (I seem to be doing this more than writing lately, but that will be fixed) This past weekend, I went to the ER because of really bad heart palpitations and irregular heartbeat. It felt like I was close to undergoing cardiac arrest so I went just to make sure I’d be in good hands if that happened.  I have an anxiety disorder so I am no stranger to panic attacks. However, the palpitations were happening without anxiety so I was worried, especially since I don’t have a primary care doctor. Health care in the states SUCKS if you’re poor! I haven’t had a check up in years and I know heart disease runs in my family. The doc says I am otherwise perfectly healthy, but he had no way to appropriately test for heart issues and instructed me to seek out a health provider that could administer a 24 hour heart monitor to check and see if my abnormalities were worth looking into aside from general anxious response. I will be doing that soon. So, I am out of work (again) because I can’t work in a pandemic with questionable health. WHICH MEANS I will likely be here more often. The point of this isn’t to be like “oh no my life sucks pity me” but to encourage people to PLEASE VISIT DOCTORS REGULARLY IF YOU ARE ABLE. Don’t be like me and wait until shit hits the fan. I know medical bills are a bitch but if you can live, you can pay it off. There are payment plans. There are grants to apply for that can help you pay. There are people who care about you that can help out. Your life is worth it. Please do what you can to stay alive. Take care of yourself. I love you all. :)  ♥

Limit Break;  I’m working on replies but like. I just want to slap this on the dash because I can’t stop thinking about it and how I want it: Quistis and Zell talking about their adoption processes. How they initially felt leaving everyone behind, how they adjusted to their new families. Why Quistis’s family didn’t work out. Quistis coming over to Zell’s house more often to just chat and have tea with him and his mom. Maybe helping cook dinner or something. Quistis becoming emotional because Zell got the family she ALMOST had, the one that slipped through her fingers. Quistis and Zell growing super close once she breaks down that barrier and lets him in. Quistis admitting she was jealous of him, but then he opens his family to her like she’s actually his sister. Ma Dincht unofficially “adopting” her to give her the family she always deserved. UGHHHHH I just...need all of this. Or someone to yell at about these potential FEELINGS.

Limit Break; Hello all! I must apologize for my sudden absence. My coworker suddenly gave birth in October, a month before she was said to be due, and I had to take quite a few shifts to make up for it. In addition, some people were fired and I had to take on even more work. I have had NO free time to come here but thought about it every day. I was in the middle of making an event, after all. I do plan on doing that event at the start of the year. I am going to be making Timber Maniacs issues each month with articles explaining the “lore” of this event so it’s going to go as long as we all decide, I suppose. This time off has given me the ability to really flesh out what I want to do and make it really great for you all. I will also get to long-awaited replies starting next week. I’m so excited to return!