#he’s been taught not to have outburst but how does he feel in general about his force sensitivity not being a secret anymore? 👀
@raiderscove thank you for your wonderful tags about my boy. <3 And to answer this particular question, he did pick up on the disapproval toward his Force sensitivity amongst his Family, so he was a bit ashamed of it when he first was... "transferred" to the Sith. He was initially awed by how freely the other students and acolytes embraced this ability he'd been raised to view as a dirty secret, but with how brutal and unforgiving Sith training is, he very quickly got on par with them. Given his natural skill for subtlety, he finds the Force more... coperative or easy to wield when he's trying to do things like cloak himself from view or cloud someone's mind, direct their attention away from him.
Even with the steep and quickly grasped learning curve, there is an adjustment period mentally to it being encouraged rather than disciplined to freely use the Force. It takes him a while to stop having a beat of hesitation between wanting to use the Force and actully doing it bc he was so "well-trained" as a kid to shut that impulse down. and it does take getting his butt thoroughly kicked* in a couple fights while his age is still single digit for him to fully get over the hang-up. But it's Sith training, you hesitate too long or too many times, you die.
Even once he's old enough to fully understand what was done when he was a kid--traded as a political favor/erasing of a dirty secret twofer--he's grateful for it. Being Sith isn't easy, but at least he's not hiding a huge part of who he is for social approval. And going through the training with the background of being from a Chiss Noble Family puts him in a good position with at least rudimentary training to do what he wants to do, reform-wise.
