#* thoughts

Are you surprised? It’s like bubblegum pop

Because I broke all the rules

Because I’m going to show you the real me

Really really me

I’m a cherry on top yeah 🍒

will i ever see or write kureno getting truly angry ?? like, one aspect of his character that i adore is how cold / hard / distant he can be and i kind of love playing him straight & no nonsense, despite the fact that without environmental factors present he’s ridiculously upbeat, mellow, and easygoing. 

for the longest time, i’ve tried to figure out how to access a situation where kureno would actually react with something even in the territory of annoyance. as much as he’s scatterbrained and shameless in situations of social embarrassment, etc, he’s highly self aware in interpersonal relationships, and even more highly aware of both what people need and his own strengths and weaknesses. 

having his flaws pointed out or shouldering abuse will likely never provoke him, not necessarily because he agrees with it (he doesn’t have the best self image but he’s quick enough to know the difference between someone’s perception of him and his actual shortcomings), but because he never takes vitriol at face value. he almost ignores ?? what people tell him because he’s too busy trying to figure out why they’re doing what they’re doing, what’s causing them pain, how they’re hurting. by now he’s been immersed in experiences that taught him that anger and lashing out are the byproducts of pain’s manifestation. 

i’m pretty sure the closest, canonically, he’s come to actual anger was when he saved rin ??? for having read this manga so many times you’d thing i’d have a better memory. @.@ but that brings up a really interesting concept of where he’s drawn the line and how he responds to that. in that particular situation, the moment that brought on his distress (finding rin) also coincided with a lifetime of trying to build up the courage to tell akito the truth he’d discovered long ago, about her fate should she keep herself chained to the curse. 

would someone truly threatening akito push him into anger ?? will anything directed at him do it ?? and how will he deal ?? i don’t think he enjoys being distant or cold or hard or painfully honest, but won’t back down or pull away from that emotion if he deems it necessary for the health / happiness / wellbeing of someone else (ie, telling tohru the truth even though it caused her a great deal of pain, because he judged that her having the information was more important than her feelings in that moment). so if he does get genuinely angry / frustrated / annoyed, i can’t see him immediately apologizing. it’s a very “threshold” kind of thing with him -- once he sees that his anger is necessary, he commits.