#* javier

Digging Deeper.

THIS BIO CONTAINS THE FOLLOWING TRIGGERS : implied miscarriage, infidelity, depression, drug use/addiction

Javier’s childhood was never short of love, that much could be said to be true. But surrounded by siblings who excelled in an assortment of different areas and parents who had their own opinions on how their children should be, it didn’t take long for Javier to feel as if he were falling behind in some manner or another, never quite living up to expectations. He didn’t excel in school, didn’t have natural ‘book smarts’ that seemed to come so easily to some of his siblings. He wasn’t naturally inclined to throw himself into the military and protect people he had no real connection to, or put his own life on the line against others for some bigger than him purpose.

So he rebelled. He refused to entertain his father’s whims of ultra survivalist necessity in the world they lived in, barely absorbing the random bouts of ‘knowledge’ he spewed. He broke curfew more often than not, stayed out late nights with friends passing a joint or a bottle of beer. He would sneak back in through his bedroom window, left cracked open for just that purpose - as if it might help him escape his mother’s fury. Some nights he would simply stay out all night long, hooking up with his girl friend or finding somewhere else to while away the hours. One thing that did stick in Javier’s head from his childhood, however, was the love and importance of family. As much as he might have been a thorn in their sides or a worry in the back of their mind, Javi was always there when his siblings needed him, in one way or another. In general, he looked out for his family - even if he wasn’t inherently the best at it. He’s protective of them, loyal to them - and would go to any lengths necessary to make sure they’re taken care of.

Javier’s wife became one of those critical people in his life, too. He fell hard and fast at a young age, and they’d decided to marry not long after graduating school because - well, what was the point in waiting? They knew what they had with each other was something special and wanted to form a family of their own. He got a job working as a mechanic at the local auto shop, taking on long hours to make a nice nest egg for his future family. The couple began trying for a child, or children, but their relationship started to crumble bit by bit as their attempts at conceiving a baby proved futile. After investing money in several rounds of treatment and getting excited for a coming child only to lose the dream once again - it weighed heavily on both of their shoulders.

Taking on extra shifts at the auto shop and working longer nights in an attempt to make up the money they’d spent, Javier found it more and more difficult to return home knowing they had lost another child - and knowing that his wife probably needed his support now more than ever before and he couldn’t seem to figure out how to provide it. Instead, it was far easier to throw himself into work than let himself feel. Not to mention, he missed her. He missed what they’d once had before all of this. It felt as if they’d put their entire relationship on hold and that with all their attempts to conceive, they’d distanced from one another. He missed their casual affection - and by accident, he found it in someone else. It had been a mistake as soon as it happened; just a random woman in a bar that gave him that affection he’d been craving from his wife for seemingly too long.

Javi planned to tell her as soon as it happened, but by the time he got up the courage, she was pregnant and the time simply didn’t seem right. Then the days turned to weeks, turned to months - and the secret spoiled on his tongue. He didn’t want to submit her to any unnecessary stress by bringing it up. Besides, it had only been a one time mistake. It hadn’t meant anything. He loved his wife, his family. But of course, such ugly secrets had a way of getting out. He’s not even sure how she found out, but how didn’t matter so much as what came next. She’d kicked him out of the house, refused to see or hear him out. Time passed, slipping through his fingers, as he tried to pick up the pieces and put his relationship back together again. But the pieces no longer seemed to fit. The harder he pushed, the more she pulled away. He ended up moving in with his elder brother, Santiago, in Intercept, New Mexico for a time when it seemed that repairing his relationship may not be possible.

He’s beginning to make a name for himself here, even if it doesn’t feel like home. He has his family, somehow he thinks they would always take him in no matter what horrible things he’d done, but he doesn’t have her - and it has been difficult for him to overcome that pain. He drowns it out in work and in the bottom of a liquor bottle - and sometimes when that doesn’t help, he seeks harder substances to cope.

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Wanted connections to be fleshed out at some point later…

(Ex) Wife: He cheated on her and subsequently broke apart their family. She was pregnant with their child at the time, UTP what happened to said child and how she ended up in Intercept

The girl in the bar could bring some interesting drama, too.