#(please read.)

first of all, and talking to you anon, i can't blame you or take importance off from how you felt after supporting me from the beginning. but thinking i have an idea of who you are, i feel like this is very unfair.

1. you could have told me without anonymity, and 2. i've never been hypocritical with you nor have i left without answering a single message, a comment, an ask, or anything you sent me because i truly considered you a friend during those two and a half years that we shared like stays together.

second and with respect to this blog that has been left in suspense, it's not a scam, it was a new beginning. i said it when i explained that i didn't want to write any more because of fatigue; i had another blog in which i wrote since 2018 when there were very few accounts writing for stray kids. i didn't speak english, i didn't have the slightest idea of the concept of writing, i was guided by what i felt was 'smart' coming from a 15-year-old girl. i was experimenting.

after years of reading on wattpad i wanted people to value my work like any fanfiction writer, i wanted to do amazing things that went viral and all the blogs i admired talked about it, i wanted to get into the group of popular writers who felt like the very elite, i just wanted to be integrated. i gained popularity after almost a year, i always wrote the same type of content but overnight it was no longer interesting. the percentage of interactions was ridiculous compared to the amount of people who followed me, and my blog was exclusively fics, i had no other content because i focused on that.

+ 2.3k are only those that were left after deleting everything and publicly assuring that they could unfollow me.

do you know how stressful it is to turn a hobby into a job as a high school student? i spent every day on the computer writing stories in hopes that someone would read them and then they simply flopped, they didn't even reach 10 reblogs while all the others did, i felt that all the people who followed me just ignored me while my fellow writer friends succeeded.

do you have any idea how disappointing and exhausting this was?

of course i wanted to start over. many writers joined in that two year span, many had fresh and new content and i wanted to give it a try too. what was the point of saying it was me again? i wasn't moving, i wanted to erase all that failure and give it a second chance. social networks are made for that, to take refuge behind a screen. i felt safer using all that other side that i never showed on the other blog, and that was still me.

you can feel disappointed and angry because it's exactly how i felt about something that i was supposed to do because i enjoyed it and because i wanted to. when i started here i felt that satisfaction and hope again, and i do not regret having done it even though the same thing happened.

please stop spreading hate and start talking things like a mature person instead of spewing poison "like a snake". by the way, you seem to be good with words, so you could take my place. i'm going to delete the aks along with everything else and let those who have really enjoyed my content here continue to do so. i can assure you that as sweet as they are, none of them knew my previous blog and they didn't need to do so to support me in this one.