TW:VENT
i get mad so much that i feel like my anger is my default emotion. i hate how mad i get. i hurt the people i love. i hurt everyone when i get mad. i try to have a good relationship with my family, it never ends well. i ALWAYS end up getting mad. i thought i had changed, and that i wouldnt get mad alot and that i could be good old happy hope again, before all the anger came and before i turned into a angry teenage daughter. i bet my parents miss how i was before, miss all the happy moments, how i was before puberty, and everything. i just want to be happy again. it seems like im happy for a few days at most, then barely go a day without fighting and getting irritated. i hate it so much. i feel like crap after i get mad, i feel so bad and realize how much i have hurt my loved ones. i wonder how my friends feel, i want to know if anyone even likes me after all the anger and attitude.
when i get mad, its like my mind just blanks out and it goes on autopilot. i say rude things, i hurt people, and most importantly the after effects are the mood changing and me feeling like crap for how i treated them. i hate being a teenager. i wish i was a happy 6 year old, doing dance, and hanging out with my dad before our relationship had its downfall.
if you are still reading this, thank you for listening.
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