(submitted ask on another blog!! for @piecanl)
okay but what if q!tubbo died.
okay but what if he died saving sunny.
okay but what if he died giving Sunny his last heart because he was still on a two-heart system.
okay but what if he died because of an accident. Any kind of accident. Deaths are tragedies, in which both when he died in a tragic accident or died in the most normal way. His deaths are unnoticeable if you haven't checked because he always came back the same. Although it became a little bit off. They moved on. Tubbo moved on. His heart didn't.
okay but what if he died because he didnāt want to use anything to heal because he thought dying and then reviving was faster than chugging down a whole golden apple. He doesnāt care anymore. He is numb. He is on one heart. He threw himself in the machine so he could have a quick death because several seconds later he was back revived on his bed.
(he ignored his twisted and gruesome corpses lying around the machine)
(he uses them to power the machines when coal isnāt sufficient. He now wash the machines twice a day to make sure Sunny won't find out.) (She did. She didn't tell him.)
okay but what if it is actually an accident. Everyone thought he wore armour. He didnāt. Someone one-tapped him playfully and when they realized he was long gone.
okay but what if he doesnāt die. What if he was forced to live until everyone else died and everyone left, but he, and him alone, remained on the island. The buildings were demolished, the ponds polluted, and legends said he was still working on the avocado toast machine because it fucking broke again.
(he had no one to feed the avocado toast to. He ignores the thought and pretends there is someone else. He feeds to the polished, preserved signs on the ground, on the walls, on his machines.)
okay but what if he lived. Not forever, but long enough the islanders came to a realization that he doesnāt really age. What if the federation realized he doesnāt really age - yet - because now he doesn't age anymore. There is a difference between a long-lived life and an immortal. Similar in pain, yet different nonetheless. He wasn't ready.
okay but what if he died but no one knows, because no one remembers him, lost in the swirls of the time-traveling machine evermore. He wasn't there in the past, nor the present or future. His daughter is safe, safe in the past, safe in the clutches of the islander's past lives that he knew 'he' hadn't met. He isn't safe, because time swallowed him whole. A price paid for trespassing a realm that no mortal should step in.
okay but what if he died because a sin for a sin, a cage for a cage.
(he doesn't know what sin did he commit - he burned down a world, an alarm always ringing at the back of his head, a prison that has no escape.)
(he doesn't know what cage was he trapped in - a yellow-and-black concrete, on a stage, a firework, and a festival.)
okay but what if he just doesnāt want to live anymore. No one can stop him from dying. He planned the plan meticulously, no one found out - Sunny did, but it was too late. He died in the water - blue was always his favourite color. Or he was frozen to death, but this time no one came to dig him out of the ice cave. He was sinking to the bottom before anyone realized what was happening. Guess the will he made long ago did have some use.
(blue is a lovely color. deathbringer, coach.)
okay but what if no one attended his own funeral except his ghost left on the island, because no one knew. He buried his corpse, he wrote his own scripts, he placed his own flowers. It was thousands of blocks away from the explored land, so it made sense no one came.
okay but what if he died?
