#&today

Today was pretty freaking productive. Worked from 10 to 2, came home to change and have a quick lunch, then went to get a quote for my anime club tshirt orders. the woman at the shop was very helpful and we have a tentative deal, but I don't wanna jump into the first oportunity--while its a good one, it's also expensive. I need to get those bakas to prepay for their shirts and I dunno how willing they'd be. all I know is that I'm not going to drop 350 of my own money on this. afterwards I went to target and picked up a copy of fe:a for Carrie's bday present (sssshhh it's secret), along with a sports bra because I'm worth it heha and I dislike regular brassiers ya feel me picked up my mom from work, bought Delicious raspberry Greek froyo at the supermarket (I'm in love btw) and hot bike at around 5........by then I realized I'd been out and about since 930 and took a much enjoyed nap. I'm supposed to be going to Conway tomorrow and I kiiinda don't want to but at least I'll have Saturday to laze around. ..... I oughta work out tomorrow.....

I'm feeling real good this evening! So I'm really trying to let my real self out more often, along with letting go of grudges, and it's going pretty well. I feel like I've buried a hatchet out in the backyard of idioms and it feels nice yo. Also trying to stop acting "normal"--and I really don't wanna sound like "haha I'm such a weird girl not like the others so random xddddd" but I guess that's an alright way to describe it ... Yeah, toned down is better. I'm trying not to tone myself down more around drew and also my pals and people I don't know well (but would like to). It's going smoothly, I think. I don't need to be ashamed or whatever of what I like or things like that. Today's just been kinda good. I've been having more Me Time these past couple days, which is grrreat! It gets a little boring sometimes, not having hung out with anyone since the last day of school(a month ago), but I'm feeling....really good. I just knocked on wood, I'm not gonna let this get messed up I feel myself changing. It's good. Shedding old skin and coming into a new self. Not drastically new but yanno what I mean. Here's to June!

I had a huge post typed up on my phone but I changed the app to open a new tab of this freakin LP and I lost it So I'm getting my tattoo on Wednesday! The appointment's been made, along with a nonrefundable 20$ down payment. I wanted to get one before I moved back with my parents, and it's not like its on a whim--I've had the idea for a little over a year. I guess I'm just a little jittery about it because ehehehe I'm a little baby about pain and I try my best to avoid it---- Ahah wow my parents have explicitly said I shouldn't get a tattoo yet here we are I feel like many of my peers have gone against their parents wishes before. I also think I'm late on that? But I've never...really Done that before. That too unnerves me. I'm excited and nervous. And also pretty psyched to go camping tomorrow.